Not Another Heart Break

I cant believe this is happening to me. One second hes calling me beautiful and telling me he wouldn't hurt me for the world, and the next..im crying alone in my bed wondering why he did this to me. This guy which whom i would never expect this from, the guy who finally gained enough trust from me, did this.

"Come on baby dont be mad its complecated"

"I don't care, it could be more complicated than the human eye and I wouldn't give a shit"

"Explain, why are you doing this?"

"Youve had a girlfriend for three years, Charlie. Explain why you did that to me!"

We yelled as I walked out of his house and walking down the road. My heart was broken once again and this time it just felt like another piece fell off and got lost in the cracks of the floorboards. Each time i loose another piece but it still hurts just as bad as it did last time.

Charlie told me I was his world, he told me nobody else mattered as long as i never left his side. What an asshole. I'm so done with him.

"Kat I know! I messed up just please don't do this! Not now!"

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Im sitting in my class, tired, hurt, and in pain. I dont know what to do. My first hour of class is just droning on and on..I wish i could just leave..leave..go home..and sleep. Charlie doesnt  understand what im going through and hes such an ass, i dont think he has feelings.

He says he loved his girlfriend and he couldnt ever hurt her. But if he loved her, he would have never wanted to hang out with me..or be with me..or even talk to me.. But now im the one in pain hurting and suffering, with a broken heart and dry eyes from not sleeping. I need sleep. Bad. I am so sleep deprived i could pass out any time now.  But i would do nothing but dream of a life i wish i could have, and a girl i wish i could be, then wake up and come to reality that i am only Kat Cherry, a socially awkward Sophomore in a class of 48 people. 48 sophomores in a small school not the non forgiving. Why would they care now?