I wish i could go back to 2004
I would work harder, and push myself more
Maybe things would've been different, maybe i could've made my family proud
Maybe i would've been happier, instead of walking around, like over my head there's always a dark cloud
I sit up late at night and wonder, is it too late for me?
I close my eyes and imagine so many amazing things, but those things, i never turned out to be
I'm intimidated by everyone's success, i'm afraid of rejection, and my emotions aren't easily controlled
If only life granted a teacher, someone to take me aside, and bring me into the fold
Sometimes i question, what brought this life to be?
Why am i so broken? What is it i need to learn and who is it that can teach me?
The world, is so big, yet i feel so small
I break at sight, and I crumble as i fall
I wish i could go back in time, and change my life
Then i could bring myself to look in the mirror with pride, and not shame, as i look at my scar, and remember that dull knife
I wish it was easy, and i didn't have so many obstacles, so many challenges to hurtle.
I feel like the shell without the turtle
I just wish my life was pre set
Maybe then i wouldn't be filled with so much damn regret
"There is no do-over's. There is only now. You can't focus on changing the past you can only focus on changing the present. Your future isn't over yet."- Han_Man
