Sex
(Just pretend that these songs are yours lol and sorry if you don't like it)
"Five minutes till stage (y/n)!" I heard a voice call out. I sighed heavily taking my hands off my face. My head hurt terribly, probably hang over or maybe it's because I've been thinking too much about her. I slammed my eyes shut and and shook my head.
Don't think about her... Don't think about her... Don't think about her...
Taking another deep breath I arose from my dressing room and walked out to the side of the stage. Waiting for the girls to introduce me. Green eyes met mine and my heart suddenly ached, I broke her intense gaze immediately. I could feel her burning holes through the the side of my head, did I care? Yes. Could I show her that I cared? No. Even if she did break my heart for the millionth time I'd still always care about her. God do I hate myself for it. Why should I give a fuck about her? All she does is use me for her pleasure, she doesn't care. She never did. She doesn't love me, she loves him. I clenched my jaw and shut my eyes to try and stop tears from escaping. I sighed and tried to slow down my heart rate. I open my eyes slowly as I heard the girls introduce me. Putting a fake smile on my face as i walked passed her. I could feel her gaze burning holes into me, but I didn't look at her once. I couldn't, or else I'd start crying again. All I have to do is finish set this and then I can go back to the hotel and watch Netflix with Camila.
The audiences' cheers rang through my head and I smiled as I waved at them. No matter how low I was feeling I had to give them the concert that they payed for. I was wearing a black bralette and a high waisted skirt. My black knee socks made my outfit a bit more sexy and I ran a hand through my long hair.
"How are you guys feeling tonight?!" Screams were heard and I smiled widely. "Alright well I'm gonna preform a few songs for you guys and even a new one I just wrote!" The audience cheered again and I bit my lip. I looked to my left and there she was, staring right at me. I turned around and waited for the band to start playing. Letting my alter ego take control, as the music began to play.
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".....That's magic in a cheetah print coat
Just a slip underneath it I hope
Asking if I can have one of those
Organic cigarettes that she smokes
Wraps her lips round the Mexican coke
Makes you wish that you were the bottle
Takes a sip of your soul and it sounds like....
Just might have tapped into your mind and soul
You can't be sure." I wiped the sweat off my forehead and smiled widely at the crowd as I finished yet another song. Lauren was still watching me preform from the backstage. I knew she was gonna hear the song. But I didn't care. Camila was standing right next to the green eyed girl and her smile encouraged me. This would be my goodbye to heartbreak.
"Alright guys before I go off I have one more song that I wanna show you guys. You're the first to ever hear it so if it's complete shit don't be scared to let me know." The audience laughed at my joke and I closed my eyes and exhaled heavily. My guitarist began to play and I bit my lip.
"And this is how it starts
You take your shoes off in the back of my van
Yeah my shirt looks so good,
When it's just hanging off your back."
I looked at her and her eyes were closed. Probably analyzing the lyrics. Looking back at the audience I take my mic from the stand and began to walk down to the front of the stage.
"And she said use your hands in my spare time.
We've got one thing in common, it's this tongue of mine.
She's got a boyfriend anyway.
There's only minutes before I drop you off,
All we seem to do is talk about sex.
She's got a boyfriend anyway,
She's got a boyfriend anyway.
I loved your friend when I saw his film.
He's got a funny face, but I like that cause he still looks cool.
She's got a boyfriend anyway,
She's got a boyfriend anyway."
Lauren and I were laying in her bed. The buses just stopped at a hotel and she called me over claiming that she needed me. I know she didn't mean it in the way I wanted her to, but I wasn't going to deny the girl I was in love with anything. We were both bare and she turned on the tv. Probably so she wouldn't feel as awkward. Lauren always kicked me out as soon as she could. Suddenly she sat up excitedly, her eyes radiated pride.
"Look (y/n)! Look! It's brad!" My heart broke. Just minutes ago she was writhing and moaning my name. She'll always love him, she'll never love me. I couldn't hate him though. He treated her so well, he was so good to her. I couldn't even say for sure that I would be able to treat her better. The only thing I knew was that I loved her and all she ever did was hurt me. That's probably why she always felt so guilty after she came quivering underneath me. But if he made her so happy, why did she always call me for a release?
"Now we're on the bed in my room
And I'm about to fill his shoes
But you say no
You say no
Does he take care of you?
Or I could I easily fill his shoes?
But you say no
You say no."
It all happened last night. The last night I spent with her. We were in the same places as always. My head was between her thighs, bringing her to the edge. I could feel her pussy clenching around my fingers signaling that's she was close. I took her clit into my mouth and sucked. Her moans egged me on, it was the only time she would ever need me. Her back arched as I watched her come undone. She met my gaze and the lust in her eyes turned to guilt then she pushed me off.
"I can't- I can't do this anymore. I'm sorry, (y/n). I'm with brad and I can't keep on doing this to him." She was breathing deeply probably trying to catch her breath. Whatever was left of my heart was now broken. My eyes watered but I refused to cry in front of her. I breathed heavily and turned away from her. I could feel her green orbs looking at me intensely.
"Leave." My voice was weak even though I tried to sound strong. She reached for my hand but I ripped it out of her grip.
"(Y/n) I'm sorry-"
"Get the fuck out!" I shouted in her face. Tears flowed down my face and she looked at me apologetically before putting on her clothes and walking out. She didn't even make an effort to stay. After this she was probably going to call Brad and tell him that she loved him. My head ached at the very thought which was probably a reality. I sobbed loudly and drank half the mini bar trying to numb the pain. Camila came over and she held me as I cried. I promised myself that I would never sleep with her again. I couldn't handle my heart being broken again.
"Now we're just outside of town
And you're making your way down
She's got a boyfriend anyway,
She's got a boyfriend anyway.
And in not trying to stop you love
If we're gonna do anything we might as well just fuck.
She's got a boyfriend anyway,
She's got a boyfriend anyway.
You and you're tongue pierced anyway
You in your high tops anyday
You in your skinny jeans anyway
You and your fit friends anyway
I'd take em all out anyday
They've all got back combs anyway
You all got boyfriends anyway."
I didn't even realize I was crying until I opened my eyes. The crowd was cheering so loudly and I couldn't stop myself from sobbing. I bit my lip and smiled sadly before waving and walking off the stage. She wasn't waiting for me which I thanked God for. But the moment I walked into the backstage area I saw Lauren standing there looking at me with tears in her eyes. Right behind her was brad hugging her and probably congratulating her on her performance. No matter what, she'll always pick him.
"I'm so sorry." She mouthed to me but i looked away. Camila walked over to me with a big grin on her face. I smiled widely at her and jumped into her open arms. Butterflies flew in my stomach and I got goosebumps when she said,
"Great job babe."
I got out of her embrace and bit my lip as she looked at me with nothing but admiration. I thanked her and kissed her cheek and saw the blush that covered her face. She bit her lip and I couldn't stop myself from looking at those kissable pink lips. When I met her gaze her eyebrows were raised teasingly and a smirk took over her features.
"Wanna get out of here?" She whispered into my ear suggestively. I nodded taking my lip between my teeth once again. I looked past Camila at Lauren. Her eyes radiated jealousy and sadness. I met the brown eyes once again a and took her hand in mine. She dragged me in the direction of what I presumed to be her dressing room.
Camila would treat me right, I thought. and besides Lauren's got a boyfriend anyway.
(Sorry if you hate it I'm so insecure about my writing and if you didn't hate it lmk if I should write anything else. Hope you had a good day so far lol)
