A Fluid Ride In The Offices (edited edition)

He remembers~

I wake up in bed freaking out. Why did I do that? He probably remembers! Why do I have to be so fucking stupid? I hate myself... I should just go take a shower to see if that helps, I know it won't. I feel so bad. I don't know what he'll say. Will he even remember? I take a shower and get ready. I throw on a grey short sleeve button up shirt and some black skinny jeans and some socks with a necklace and some bracelets. I still feel really bad. I'm so nervous to walk out and see Issac. We don't have work today and everyone but Issac and I are going to a meet and greet which is three hours way so they will be staying the night in a hotel. We aren't going because we take up too much attention and it is their time to meet their fans. I don't want to go outside of my room. I'll just do it. "Okay, go." I walk outside of my room and see everyone talking in the living room ready to leave with their stuff. Issac looks at me giving me a concerned look. I look down tightening my lips together which is what I do when I'm embarrassed. "We will leave at about 5:00." Says Adam. They nod and I head back to my room. I listen to music so I won't have to feel embarrassed. I get away from the world just listening to music. I watch some of my past YouTube videos to bring back old memories and good feelings. I haven't eaten but I'm not hungry because I feel really bad. I feel nervous. I feel embarrassed. I can't escape this feeling. It's horrible but good. I like the thought that I kissed Issac but I also hate it. I can tell that he remembers that I kissed him because of the look he gave me earlier. Alexis comes into my room and hands me some coffee from Starbucks. "You haven't eaten all day." She says. It is about 3:00 now. "I know, thank you." I say. "Why haven't you been eating?" She asks. "I don't know I just don't feel hunger very often." I say. "Is it a health problem?" She asks. "No it's just I can not eat when I'm nervous and I'm nervous pretty often." I say. "Why have you been nervous?" She asks. "Because I just over think things." I say. I still have that horrible but good feeling inside. "Well I'm leaving soon so come out and say bye when I leave. I'll just be in the living room." She says. "Okay I will." I say. She walks out the door. I drink some of the coffee and listen to more music and lay flat on my back. I feel so stupid. I drink the rest of the coffee and brush my teeth. It is now 4:30. I go out of my room and see max, Ross, Adam, and Tim playing video games. Issac, Alexis, Alesa, and jack are just watching. They are laughing and talking. I just sit next to Alexis. Issac is staring at me. I feel uncomfortable. "Oh shit we better leave!" Says Adam looking at the time. They all get up and get their stuff. I just stand in the hallway watching everyone. "Well bye guys." Says Adam walking out the door. "Bye Jay." Says Alexis. "Bye..." I say as my voice cracks a lot. "Woah your voice." Says Alexis. I just look down crossing my arms squeezing the sides of my ribs. "Come on!" Says Adam. They all walk outside and leave. I'm alone with Issac. He just stares at me. I am still looking down. "Jay, I remember last night." He says. I put my head in my hands and start to cry. Why do I always cry? "It's okay Jason." He says walking to me. He hugs me. "I actually really like you." He says. "I feel like your just saying that to make me feel better." I say. "I really do like you, a lot." He says. I grip my hair in frustration. I fix my hair and put my hands down. I don't really believe that he likes me. "I realized that I like you the day that you kissed me." He says. "Then why did you pull away?" I look up at him in tears. "Because I thought maybe that my mind was just playing tricks on me. But it's been a month and I still like you." He says. "I don't know..." I say, my voice cracked again. He then kisses me. After a while I pull away out of breath. He pulls me into a hug. He takes me into his room. (This is nothing bad) His room smells like him. He kisses me again in the corner of his room.
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I wake up in his bed realizing I fell asleep while we were talking. His arms are around me. I quickly run out of his room remembering that everyone will soon get back from the meet and greet. I don't want them to see me come out of Issac's room in the morning. (That would be awkward af) I am just about to get to my room until I feel hands grab me into another room. "Oh my god! What did you do with him!?" Alexis says as Alesa shuts the door. "Nothing, what you are thinking about?" I say. "Why were you in his room?!" Asks Alesa. "Because... We found out we have feelings for each other." I say. "Wow, I never thought I would see you with someone! You've never been interested in dating before! Or have sex!" Says Alexis. "We didn't have sex." I say. "Where are the guys?" I ask. "They went to go get some more video games." Says Alesa. "Please don't tell anyone yet." I say. "Why!?" Asks Alexis. "Because I don't even know if we are together 'officially' and if he wants to tell anyone yet." I say. "Fine, but when he says that it's okay to tell people then in going to tell everyone." She says. "Okay just let me go get ready for work!" I say. "Fine GO! Leave!" Yells Alexis. I walk out and see Issac giggling in his doorway. I tighten my lips together. I walk into my room and get ready like I always do. After a shower I put on a black button up shirt with a collar and some black shorts with black hightops, the bottom of the shoes are white. I put on my glasses because I need them when I read or look at screens. I walk out and see everyone waiting for me while Adam and Ross talk about the video games they just bought. "Alright let's go." Says Adam. We leave to the offices and and walk in. Today we are doing a sing off in minecraft and I'm terrified of singing in front of people, the worst part is that the editors will hear too. Adam, Michael, Issac, Tim and I will be in the sing off. Today is going to be a long day...

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