Just One Last Dance- Eunhae

Perplexed Feelings

A/N: Sorry for the late update but I had too many exams to revise for and also, somehow I lost my ‘inspiration’ and dedication to write this so this chapter might suck a bit sorry, also, I was busy writing these 2 oneshots (different stories) of Eunhae and another fan fiction on Kyumin which I’ll be uploading soon. Anyway, here’s the second to last chapter! Hope you enjoy it :D and please read and review and comment!

Just One Last Dance Chapter 3: Perplexed feelings

EUNHYUK'S POV

I closed my eyes and listened to the hum of the plane engine growing softer and felt the effect of the plane descending on my heart.

Thump thump

Thump thump

Thump thump

Finally, after the plane stopped going round in circles and we were allowed to leave, I rushed out. Why do I feel a strange feeling of excitement, nervousness and joy? It must be because I'm seeing Hae for the first time in years. Yes, that's the reason for my heart to thump painfully against my chest.

One the way to the village where Donghae was, questions suddenly popped up in my head. What if Hae doesn't want to leave Spain? What if he doesn't want to see me? What if he’s still angry with me? What if he found someone better than me? I'm thinking too much, Hae is only a best friend and a brother to me, so why should I get upset if he chooses someone else as his...lover? It's none of my business to ruin his life. And I won't. As if I haven't messed up enough already. I gulped hard as pain started shooting to my heart. A foreign feeling evades me: desire, pain, hope, lust and longing.  All for Donghae. What is wrong with me?

DONGHAE’S POV

“You…you’re joking hyung,” I saw pain flash on his face, but I couldn’t do anything. I don’t want to get hurt again.

Love is like a drug, as soon as you allow the poisonous perpetual reaction into your body, contaminating your blood, altering your DNA and infiltrating venom into your heart, you are in danger.

You’re in a fatal position that cannot be saved from love except love itself. But this is worth it; you’re living the best moments of your life. Little did you know that your heart is not yours anymore, it’s just an organ that pumps blood around your body for you to live for a few more decades.

Your heart deceives you into thinking that this feeling will last forever. And you believe it…until the warmth and support disappears. Then the addiction kicks in, reaching you at the speed of light yet leaving you at the speed of light also. After this, is love still desired? The answer is yes.  Humans are not evolved enough to learn from their mistakes. Even after you are left exposed to the strident criticisms, the heartless media, the filthy looks and voices so disgusted that you can even apprehend pity in Satan’s eyes…can you still believe in love?

You tell yourself that because of this arduous and severe break up, you will be stronger. But actually, you are even more vulnerable and defenseless than before. Each break up will only wane yourself mentally and physically: turning a small crack into a gap and a gap into a hole. Once you start, there is no going back.

Before you try love, you may think your world is fine being the way it is. Then why bother trying it? Peer pressure maybe, feeling adventurous maybe, or just wanting to fit in with the rest of the world. However, when you take on love you realise the massive difference. You will find it much worse when that feeling leaves you once again…lurking around unnoticed, targeting its next victim. Drowning the next person in sweet but deadly nectar, a suffocating and penetrating death, torturously slow. Now your life has altered so much, can you be the same you?