PLEASE, JUST A DANCE
The Earth, in some moments, is wonderful, exactly as I had imagined when I was living in space.
I love walking in the forest observing the sun playing hide and seek among the leaves of the trees, smell the air redolent of musk fragrances and breathe, breathe deeply.
Since I came back to the camp every day I try to take the time to come here to stroll, this helps me clear my mind.
The days are long and heavy, with Raven, Monty, Jasper and Harper are trying to reprogram the computers, looking for any connection, albeit remote, with the old network. Our hope is to find a few more active computers among the ruins of the nuclear power stations that have not yet caught fire. Maybe it's useless, but it is a beginning, an idea.
I try to be positive and optimistic, especially in front of others but sometimes it is so difficult and so I feel lonely ... "Bellamy" I whisper "Bellamy" repeat his name like a mantra helped me to feel better in these long months of remoteness but now I miss him so much ...
A confused noise brings me back to reality, I look around warily, and not far away I saw two figures on horseback, their approach and I recognize one of the knights, I feel my heart burst with joy, I start to run and after a few moments I hold between my arms Octavia.
I'm so happy, after her revenge she was gone and we had not heard anything about her.
We dissolve our hug, we look each other "you're alive! Are you okay?" I ask scrutinizing hes face "yes, I feel better" she smiles at me, in her eyes there is still a hint of sadness, however, she seems more serene. We still hug each other "it's nice to have you back with us". The excitement for having found Octavia got me completely forget that she was not alone, I spun around and remain petrified ... standing next to his horse there's Roan, amused makes me nod "Wanheda" "are you alive?" "so it seems". Roan and Octavia exchange an amused look. "If you're here there's my big brother too, Clarke let's go, I have a great desire to embrace him" as she appoints Bellamy her eyes come to life and I do not know how to tell her that he is not here.
"Bellamy remained in Polis" I begin, but my voice cracks and I look down, breath and try to pick up the thread of the speech but Octavia hits me like a tornado "is he not here? is he not with you? But how is it possible, I do not believe it! And what does he in Polis? No, he would never separated from you. What have you done?" Roan looks up at the sky and I ... I give the most comprehensive version that I can.
I tell them about the nuclear plants, the radiation that are being choked the Earth, our plan to groped to block the latest explosions across the network and to organize the bunkers in Polis if the plan fails "that's why your brother remained in Polis with Kane, my mother, Murphy and others. If we can not stop the explosions the only hope of survival will be in the structure they are building" they are shocked, they look to each other puzzled "Now come on, you will be tired, and others will be happy to see you O." I smile and I walk to the camp, they follow me in silence.
The evening is pleasant, the return of Octavia was a shot of adrenaline for the whole group, are hours that we chat, and none of us seems to want to go to sleep. Roan does not talk much, more than anything else he is watching us but I noticed that often Octavia seeking his gaze and when this happens, he smiles ...
"Clarke?" Octavia sits next to me, she hugs my waist and put her head on my shoulder, "how long have you not see him?" I am surprised that she has withheld so much before askes me it "two months, and I do not hear him from 40 days, Raven has still not managed to fix the radio that went on tilt after a thunderstorm " "why?" "what do you mean? How why? We had no choice, we have no time ... and ... and ..." "and once again, you have put others first" finishes the sentence for me "there was no other way" I insist and kissed her on the cheek and I go to sleep hoping that she has not noticed the tears that I could not hold back.
