Chapter 1.
(ALEX'S P.O.V)
I'm awoken by the sound of my alarm clock playing "Fix You" by Coldplay.
Please fix me. I thought to myself.
What is wrong with me. Why am I so lonely. So unwanted. So fat. So ugly. So...So Broken. What did I do to deserve to feel like this.
I then fall back into a soft sleep hoping to resume the first good dream I've had in a long time. .Guess I was wrong. Instead I dreamt of him.
*Flashback*
Me and my boyfriend Jordan had been dating for about 4 months. I trusted him. Or so I though I did.
We were on a date. And I was never one to like clubbing, but Jordan insisted on going. And once again I agreed to it.
*At The Club*
"C'mon baaabby" he slurred. "Dance with me"
Ugh. I knew this would happen. He knows I hate it when he has to much to drink.
"No Jordan, you're too drunk" I said
"No I'm not. C'mon" he pulled me towards the dance floor"
I couldn't hold back. His grip was getting tighter and tighter on my wrist. I have to admit. I was scared.
After A while of dancing, he leaned in to kiss me. But it wasn't the nice, warm, passionate ones we usually share. This one was messy, and forceful. It was scaring me. Then he did what I never thought he would do.
"Baaby.... I want you" he whispered into my ear.
I backed away. "No, you're way to drunk" I said with anger in my voice.
"Did you just say NO to me?" He asked with anger in his voice.
"Ya I did, I'm leaving, call me when you're not a drunk asshole" I said turning to walk away.
But I wasn't fast enough.
He grabbed my waist and put his large hand over my mouth, and dragged us towards an empty closest.
"Jordan... Please..." I begged.
"P-please" I begged again.
But before I knew it he had punched me right in the face. And that was only the beginning. He kicked me many times.
"Jor-" I couldn't even finish, I began to cough out blood.
And then all I saw was darkness.
*End of Flashback*
I jolted up from bed, letting out a scream. I felt tears streaming down my face. Why.Was.I.So.Dumb.
I never should have trusted him. The things he said, the things he did, the way he looked at me. It was all a lie. And he's the reason I'm like this. He left me broken.
He's the reason I'm alone. He's the reason I'm unwanted. He's the reason I hate myself. Everything is his fault.
(A.N. Hello everyone who is reading this. This is the first time I've ever written anything. I hope you like it. Feel free to message me, and comment what you think.)
~Elicia
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