Not The Usual Love Story || E.D.

Chapter 3

"Hey, I'm Jenny." After watching my video yesterday after work, I decided to start uploading videos to youtube so I can look at them like a little diary online. That's so I don't have too much space cramped up on my lap top too. It's not like anyone will watch them. I'm a nobody. It's not like I'm any of those o2l guys, or Zoella, or even Bunny.

"So I decided to start uploading my videos to youtube. I'm not trying to do anything with youtube other than to just entertain me and see if I improve myself through my days. The last video I filmed was actually good for my second attempt. That was about three days ago and I finally watched it back yesterday and I thought it would be a good idea to upload it. I'm doing that tomorrow as I'm filming this, then I'll probably upload this the next Friday. And maybe this is a start of something that I'll like." I smiled because this is actually making me feel better. It's like a therapy session, but you don't really talk about the depressing feeling you have. I'm happy that I wanted to try this out to see if I would be one of the people that filming actually helps. I always related to youtubers, so I thought it would be a good shot to try.

"I honestly like filming myself just talking." At least one laugh a day since you started filming, good job Jenny. "The first time I tried, it felt really weird and uncomfortable, but I had a couple of good moments in there. So I tried again and then it felt a lot more comfortable. It's still a little weird, but I feel less alone." Yet another laugh. You're doing so well. So if anyone is watching this, it would be kinda cool if you liked and maybe subscribed." I threw my arms up into a shrug questioning if that was right.

"I guess I'll see you next week with another video." Yet another laugh slipped out. Three laughs in a matter of five minutes. I'm already improving.

I got up to turn the camera off and I went to edit the other video to the best of my amateur ability so it would be ready to upload in the morning. This feels so weird but so right.

After I edited the video to my liking I went to get dressed so I can grab something to eat because I didn't feel like cooking tonight. I threw on a galaxy printed sundress that tied in the back of the top half. The only reason why I'm wearing a dress is because it's Florida so it's not even cold out and I just shaved my legs this morning.

While driving to subway I was thinking about what I'm going to do when I got home. Maybe a movie? I thought to myself, but I realized I watched almost every movie on netflix already. Maybe a redbox movie? I quickly turned into the walgreens parking lot because they always had a good stock in their redbox. When I got out of my car I saw someone that looked familiar in front of the redbox, so I was hesitant of going behind them to wait until their done getting their movie. As I got behind the guy I realized it was my brother's best friend, Gustavo.

"Hey!" I was shocked he recognized and acknowledged me when he turned around, but smiled so I didn't seem rude, "How have you been?"

"Um... Alright." Has he even heard what happened?

"You can call me anytime if you ever want to. I've heard all about your parents." Yup. Of course he would know. Nathan and him are best friends and tell each other everything.

"Thanks, that actually means so much." He smiled meaning he didn't get my awkward vibe that I have right now.

"Your brother told me everything and I'm glad you're doing fine after that. You haven't been going to church since, though." Why did he have to bring that up?

"Yeah, I've been busy and-" he cut me off before I could finish my sentence.

"Did you drop out of school? I haven't seen you around like I use to last year." And that's what I was trying to explain before you cut me off.

"Yeah I decided to drop from public school and just do virtual school. I-I am worse at socialing aft-after all of tha-at." My stutter is back again. This happened after I tried going back to public school in August. My stutter was caused by social anxiety and it got worse since in the past month. School started about six months ago and I couldn't keep going after the first week. I didn't really socialize much between being emancipation and school, so I didn't know I would have a stutter until I was made fun of it at school.

"Oh, I'm sorry. Maybe we can go out to eat sometime to talk about it." My throat didn't allow me to speak so I decided to just give a simple nod and cross my arms, so Gustavo would get the vibe. But of course he didn't pick it up.

"Nathan said you got a job too." How is he so persistent with this conversation?

"Y-yeah. It's a paid int-ternship. I'm taking a cosm-metolgy class at the college." I scratched my neck as I stuttered through my response.

"Where at? He didn't give me all the details." That's because he doesn't bother asking for details.

"It's at th-that one sal-lon only a few bl-blocks away." Don't ask anymore questions, please.

"Do you do hair there? I can come some time for you to do my hair." He smiled widely and I remember how I use to get butterflies in my stomach when he smiled at me. That feeling is gone, Jenny. Ever since he didn't help me have my brother to stay with me.

"I just w-work at the desk for n-now. The boss said I might get a sta-station there after I get my license this year."

"Text me when you get the job. I wanna be first." He smiled again and I looked down, but it looked like he was about to wink at me right before I did so.

"Okay..." I didn't plan on telling him when I got the job, but I didn't want to be mean.

"I'm gonna go, but it's nice seeing you." He gave a small smile and pat on my arm before walking off. Thank god he left. I didn't want to break even more in public.

Clearing my throat, I stepped to the redbox so I can go through the selection and I decided on a scary movie that I've seen a few previews of on tv. The first time watching a scary movie since my friend and her boyfriend moved. I can cuddle my teddy bear if I get scared at least.

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A/N

So what do you think of Gustavo? I thought it would be a good idea to introduce him because he's going to be brought up later in the story. Now you can see the vibe he puts off before the big stuff happens. Plus how do you think the youtube career is going to go for Jenny?

Hope you liked the chapter xx