{april 6, 2011}
daisy,
i wish that even though you've cut me out of your life,
that you didn't just fall off the face of the earth.
i wish i didn't have to explain to everyone the reasons behind your sudden disappearance;
i wish you'd just be an adult.
today i ordered a pizza from that parlor around the corner
i picked off all the olives, because that's the way you liked it
i realized today how childish that feels
maybe you'll never grow up;
maybe you don't want to
maybe i just don't understand that;
maybe i don't want to understand.
i wish i could stop wondering about you.
i wish i would stop trying to decipher the mess you've made.
i wish i didn't let you infect me the way you have.
infect.
& most of all,
i wish i never knew you.
