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"Ves, for the last time I will not sing Troy's part." Hansol glared playfully at his girlfriend, who was currently pouting in front of him, holding out an inflatable, blue microphone and jumping around High School Musical sing along version played on the TV."You know I can't sing! Why don't you do Vanessa's part then?"

Ves smiled brightly, her trademark eyesmile lightening up her face. "Hansolie ~ Don't be silly, you know I sing terrible! It's just for this time please! You do sing come on, you're in a boyband... Also, it's not like I'm taking a video like last time--" she suddenly stopped, opening her green eyes widely. "Uh-oh..."

"Mhm sure, you can't sing Ms. 'Leader Section in Chamber Choir'-- wait you took a video of me?" Hansol exclaimed, his girlfriend's words finally dawning on him. He stood up and started slowly creeping towards her as Ves took futile steps back and laughed nervously.

"Uh, well you see, you looked adorable when you were singing on the karaoke and I just couldn't help myself because come on, it is the Vernon Hansol Chwe dancing to SNSD's Gee. I couldn't just let that memory go!" She explained nervously, fidgeting with the long sleeves of Hansol's stolen sweater.

Suddenly Hansol stopped and bursted into a wide smile, followed by his laugh. "You should have seen your face, it was so funny! Well, at least I have that video of you dancing to Mansae, I could upload it to my Twitter, I'm pretty sure your fanclub would enjoy it."

At the mention of the so called fanclub, Ves' expression became grim. "You mean that fanclub that is two times smaller than my hate club?" She sighed, clenching her jaw and biting her lip to keep quiet.

"Ves... I told you to forget about it, it's nothing, just people who have no lives and..." Hansol was interrupted by Ves' sudden words.

"It's easy for you to say it! You're an idol loved all over the world, but I'm nothing! I can't go out without fearing for my own life and your reputation. Don't you see it? I'm just... I'm a commoner and you're a prince, Hansol. They will never like me, and I don't want to cause harm you or Seventeen! Have you ever thought about how painful it is for me? Seeing all those girls who are skinnier and prettier and would just look so much better besides you... And then hearing them say that I'm not worth of being by your side and you only took pity on me. Do you know how many times I've thought about the possibility of it being real?" She wiped the tears that were falling out harshly, and stepped away when Hansol tried to touch her, a pained look in her face.

"What if I'm only keeping you behind? You could be working on your music, or your rap or practicing but instead you're here with me. I feel like I'm only ruining all your hard work..." Her knees gave in as she cried, her always singular silent crying filling the room with deep, dark sadness.

"What if I'm nothing but a distraction to you?" She whispered between shaky breaths.

Hansol was speechless. He never knew his girlfriend felt this way. She would always urge him to go spend time with his family, and he just thought the reason behind her not wanting any of their pictures on the web was her shyness. He couldn't have guessed how much of a hard time she was having.

"Ves I... I didn't... I'm so sorry..." He tried to speak but nothing came out. He was blank. On shock.

Ves stood up, cleaning her tears and smiling a weary smile. "Vernon... I think it's time I return to my world. I loved every second I spent with you in this... This fairytale. But fairytales always have an ending and I think mine just came to it." She called him by his stage name, and something broke inside of him. She never did that. It was her way of telling him she saw him as Hansol, a real person, and not Vernon, the idol. He felt empty. Hopeless.