It Was Her

Why March?

A few months had gone by and slowly but surely I knew I was falling for Natalia. I didn't know if she was straight or not but honestly I didn't even care as long as I could see her everyday.
I was walking to school that morning and as usual it was pretty chilly so I decided to wear my favorite sweater which said the words "life turns plans upon their head", lyrics from House of Gold by my favorite band Twenty Øne Pilots. I got to the front steps and I saw Natalia sitting at the top just staring at her shoes so I decided to go up to her and make small talk. "Hi Natalia how are you" I was so nervous that I could barely get those words out of my mouth without puking. "I'm not feeling so hot today , a lot of shitty things have been going on." She seemed very sad. Although I knew she looked especially hot when she was sad but that wasn't what she meant obviously. "Why are you sad ?" I felt very nervous I was practically shaking at that point. "Well my boyfriend cheated on me and guess what. He cheated on me with the art teacher Mrs. Sullivan!!" I was very  shocked mostly because that  but also because who in the world would ever cheat on such a kind and beautiful girl like Natalia? She started crying and started talking again, "And do you know why he did it Maya?!?" I was stunned she remembered my name because usually no one cares about me enough to remember my name. "No ... why?" I asked her. "To get a fucking A in her class!". I was so full of rage and sympathy I didn't know what to do so I (of course) thought of the most stupid idea EVER. I invited her to my house for a sleepover. "Sure I would love to do that!! I have almost no friends and I would really enjoy to spend some time with you." I was so surprised of her response and I was baffled when she said she had almost no friends.... I mean... she's awesome who wouldn't want to hang out with a girl like her? I fiddled with my hands a little realizing the stupid question gave me an opportunity to get to know her better, " Great then when would you like to come over?" i asked. " How does the tenth of this week sound?" she asked. " That sounds great!" i said unknowing of what disaster would come my way.

A few weeks ago my mother had told me that we were going to go out for my birthday, she told me we were going to go to a really cool resort in Hawaii and that we were going to spend the entire weekend there. What I did not remember was that my birthday was on the tenth on a Friday and since we were going to be gone the entire weekend how the hell was I supposed to spend time with Natalia? Most importantly how in the world was I supposed a to tell a broken girl that I couldn't make the sleepover right after she told me that she had almost no friends. I know it seems awkward but I thought I would just tell Natalia I'm in love with her after school but after a few moments of reconsideration with myself locked in my bathroom I concluded that it was just best for me to tell her that I couldn't make the sleepover and just forget about my crush on her.

So the next day came and I was sweating because I had gone for a morning run to get the butterflies out of my stomach when the time came to tell Natalia I couldn't do the sleepover anymore. I was walking down the hallway when I saw her long hair swaying as she walked to her classroom. I followed her and finally caught up to her. " Hey Natalia how are you today?" i said with a huge smile in my face and now that I think of it I probably looked like a huge dork. " Well as you know I've been better but I can't wait for our sleepover this weekend I have so many ideas!" I tried to stop her but I couldn't , The happiness in her voice made me want to pick her up and kiss her but I knew I had to do what I had to do. " Uh-uh.... Natalia?" I swear to sweet elephants I felt like the worst person alive, "Yeah?" she sounded like an angel when she said that no lie. " About the sleepover... maybe I wont be able to make it due to some family purposes, is it ok if we do it some other time?" I literally wanted to grab a sword and just stab myself with it."OH come on Maya good joke HAHA anyways i'm super excited for Friday.... we'll talk later , I have to get to the field and practice a speech I have for government." I didn't know she had government but that was , I guess , the whole point of the sleepover in the first place right? Gosh why did it have to be in March? The entire day I felt like throwing myself out of a window on the third floor, our schools is pretty big. As soon as fourth period was over I raced out and tried to find her. I was searching for about fifteen minutes and then I finally saw her . She was sitting alone on a bench reading a book. I personally love books but I didn't even care about what book it was that she was reading. All I could think about was how beautiful she looked. How beautiful her hair looked as it swayed in the breeze and how cute her face looked , she was smiling at the book. I felt like running up to her and proposing to her for Christ sakes. I walked up to her as quickly as I could and I sat next to her . "MAYA! Hey! How was fourth period? Boring right! Haha" god she's so cute, I looked at my feet and said "yeah.. um... listen.. Natalia .. is it ok if we can move the sleepover to next, NEXT weekend? I really can't make it this weekend" I swear to god I felt like kissing her so much. She lifted her head up from her book and she looked at me , she looked completely broken but she was faking a smile. I could tell that she was faking a smile. I myself was an expert at faking smiles. "Oh .... yeah sure , Maya. I thought you were joking in the morning but yeah it's totally fine with me. I know it's your birthday and all....." How did she know it was my birthday?? I said "how do you know my birthday is this weekend??" She said " oh well you see I did this thing called research it helps a lot when you're trying to figure out some stuff about someone" I swear she is such a clever little lady . "Wow Natalia, I never knew you were a stalker..." I said , obviously trying to be funny, "WHAT!? NO I JUST.... I JUST WANTED TO KNOW" she seemed very alarmed and distressed it kind of freaked me out , I thought she was going to have a heart attack or something... "Woah Natalia.... calm down girl... I was joking .... but why would you research me? Am I important to you?" Oh god I wish I hadn't asked that... "well maya... you are important to me, very important" I had to pinch my thigh to stop me from blushing. "Why am I important to you?" I said . "You're important to me because I care about you and I appreciate that you care about me" the next three minutes of that moment consisted of me yelling at myself in my mind to not kiss her. Pretty soon after that lunch ended and it was time to go back inside . I had music next . She had English. Both classrooms on opposite sides of the building. We said our goodbyes only to meet again after school....