endless love/kara sevda

the aftermath

This is my first story... so not sure how it works and if everything is good.. english is not my native language and I do not own kara sevda. Im just a person sharing her thoughts....

The last thing I remember is that Ozan died. He killed himself. Was it a dream? If I open my eyes is he going to be alive? I try but my eyes betray me... the only sound I hear is a beeping machine. Where am I?

There's someone speaking to me. I recognize that voice. Its Leila's... she speaking to me telling me to wake up. I try, I really try to open my eyes but sleep takes me again...

I need to move. I feel something heavy in my arm. I open my eyes and it's my dad sleeping with his head on my arm. Where am I? Why am I in the hospital? Is Ozan alright? Is something wrong with my baby? I need answers... but I don't want to wake up my dad. He looks really tired.

I remember Kemal coming out of my house. Is he ok? What was he doing there? Emir was supposed to be home by that time. I have so many questions that need to be answered...

'Nihan?'

'Daddy? How's Ozan? Is he ok?' my dad's face suddenly darkens, he looks like he aged suddenly. How long was I asleep?

'How are you feeling? Let me call the doctor' my dad says

'No dad wait, what's wrong? Why am I here? Where's ozan? Is he ok?' he looks at me saddened and leaves the room to call the doctor. Leila enters. Where's my mom?

'Sweetie how are you feeling? 'She asks me

'I'm ok, how's ozan? Is he ok? I remember my dad calling me telling me killed himself... tell me it was a bad dream, tell me it was a nightmare Leila...'

'Oh sweetheart I'm afraid not... your brother killed himself in jail...'

That was the last thing I remember ... how, how am I going to live without my other half? How am I going to live without my brother? I open my eyes and its dark... I don't remember falling asleep though... tears are streaming again as I remember Leila's words... why? Why Ozan? Did I make you do this? Did Kemal did this? Why why did you have to kill yourself? You seemed ok the last time I visited you...

My dad enters the room again he smiles at me and he sits next to my bed taking my hand in the process.

'Baby girl, the had to sedate you... you went into sock after hearing about your brother... you have to think about yourself and your baby. Please try to be calm...'

'How's my baby? How do you know?'

'The nurse saw the ultrasound in your bag when you came in... everything is fine. The baby is healthy there's nothing to worry... '

'Daddy why did ozan kill himself? He was ok when I visited him?' I start crying again... this pain doesn't seem to end... why why did you have to choose the easy way ozan? You were supposed to stay in jail for only a year...

'Don't tire your mind baby girl with those thoughts... he found some information that he couldn't handle... it wasn't your fault... it had nothing to do with you...'

'Then what was it dad? Please, I beg you tell me... I can't leave with the burden....' I start to sob as I say this...

'No don't cry sweetheart don't cry... the information that drove ozan to the edge had nothing to do with you... please try to stay calm think about your baby...'

'Dad please tell me...' my tears are so hard that I can't even see my dad right now... I need Kemal, where's Kemal? This was supposed to be a happy day...

'Someone sent ozan a file with some photos concerning Zeynep... it appears that she was cheating on him with Emir and the baby was his....'

'No no emir is never going to leave as live he is always going to try take our life away...'

'No don't be scared... emir is dead...'

'What? What are you talking about dad? Who did this? Why?'

'We don't know who the killer is... he was fighting with Kemal in our garden about Zeynep, she had just told him about the baby....'

'Did Kemal killed emir?' No no no this cannot be happening, I cannot lose him again this is all my fault...