I have mentioned this before, Tara has always believed that she is going to die young. She doesnt know how it will happen but it will happen before she is 20. I try to tell her all the time that it will never happen but she doesnt want to listen. She says" im not afraid to die because i know where im going. i dont care that i die because i will be with God. Before i die i want to make sure my goals have been reached and that i know i have made a difference." Tara thinks of life as one huge amusement park. She says" life is no big amusement park. there will be rides you loe and rides you hate, but in the end there is a lesson thats learned." Tara lives life to the fullest every single day. there is never realy a time where she isnt happy. She lives everyday of her lifr for God because all she does is serve God. I kills me to think that maybe she is right. It kills me to think that she will be gone someday and im not ready for it. She could die tonight, tomorrow, or next week. i could to. i dont know what life would even be like without Tara. She is the only one thats realy ever been there for me. She has never judged me over my stupid mistakes. it will be so hard to find another Tara because there is no one like her. Life without her.... i couldnt imagine. My life would truely suck because who would i go to for help? She said she isnt living past 20. She is 13 now............ i dont want her to go i need her in my life. I dont know why she is even thinking of this like when she told me she was perfectly fine. i almost cried talking to her about it. Like they say only the good die young. But this world needs good ... we need Tara!!!
