Nobody Knows How I Feel

Chapter Two

School is a huge issue for me. I get bullied and hurt everyday. No one understands me. No one stands up for me ever. I have decent grades but my teachers worry because my anxiety an panic attacks. I'm so sick and tired all of this. I go to the nurse pretty much every week for panic attacks. I just want friends. I used to have a friend until she passed away last year. Her name was Abby. We were the best of friends. She was the same as me. She understood me. She knew what I was going through. My heart still hurts when I think about the phone call from the police saying that she had hung herself. Sad memories always flowing through my veins.

I have always liked this boy on my bus named Garret. I don't know what it is about him. Maybe it's his reddish brown hair flowing across his eyes or maybe his glowing emerald eyes. He just has something special about him. I wish I had talked to him before. I have no chance at all. I'm just too shy to just go up to him and speak. What if I mess everything up? What if he thinks I'm crazy or stupid?

* Later that afternoon*

As I walk to the bus stop, I see him. He's always with his friends. How is it even possible to just admire from afar and notice every little thing he does. My friend India is the only human besides me that knows about my major crush. She rides the bus with me. " Why don't you just go talk to him?" India asked. I gave India a evil glare and turned to her. " Because a guy like him is not going to like a girl like me! " I whisper screamed. Suddenly a mean looking girl comes running up to me. " Bitch! I hate you! " She screamed and pushed me. What have I done? Why is she on top of me. Oh god.