i fear im losing it

I've cried

I've lumbered

I sighed

I wondered

What would be like to come out

How would they treat me

My head is filling with doubt

Suicidal thoughts haunt me

My friends have worried about me

I haven't slept for two days

They say that I am different

And I agree

I notice I'm crying

But only in my head

I've had these weird feelings lately

All of these I've never had

Something new and exotic

But it doesn't suit my needs

I feel myself changing

But not in a good way

I'm trying to avoid friends

And just dying all day

I feel I'm changing

Am I going crazy inside

I've stared at my demons

In a game of Russian roulette

The knife is cruel and tempting

When it rides down my cold skin

I notice I'm changing inside

And there's nothing I can do

|~~•~~~I hope you guys like it this is me currently. I can only write it since my friends just can't help me.~~°~~~|