All The Things I Wish I Could Say To You

7/4/16

Dear You,

First and foremost, I love you. Believe it or not, but it's 1000% true. Second is that I wish things weren't this way, that you didn't hate your life, or yourself, or me, or whatever it is that has made you broken and hardened. I wish that whatever happened to make you this way never did. Because I need you to be there for me, and you can't do that. Thirdly, I wish we could talk, like really talk, about anything, like we're supposed to. You make me feel like I can't, you shut me down before I have a chance to speak a full thought. I just want to talk to you. Fourthly, know I have anxiety. Social situations, school, you name it I've panicked over it at least once before. I wish you understood that, and respected that I'm trying. For you. Always for you.

-me.