Everything Changes

All Hands On Deck

Bedelia sat on her living room couch, blank and staring at nothing as many different people milled about, chatting on radios, or else with each other as they decided to decide how it would be best to go about looking for and rescuing Amanda and Maggie Blue.

She'd recovered from her collapsing, and Carisi had even made her a cup of tea, but she just held the mug in one hand, while with the other, she kept it clamped over her midriff, channeling her energy into thinking about the tiny, beautiful, innocent life that was growing away in her womb without a care in the world.

What would her new baby be like?

Would he or she be fierce and protective like her, or dangerous and full of anger, like Odis Lee?

Would he or she be strong and unwavering like Amanda?

Wild and crazy, but still good-hearted, like Kim?

Or would he or she be compassionate and full of nothing but love, like Maggie Blue?

Or would the little one just be normal and silly, like Leon?

Would the child be born healthy like Amanda, Kim, and Leon were, or would she have another child with special needs, like Maggie Blue?

Would the baby be another carbon copy of her, like Amanda, Maggie Blue, and Leon, or would he or she look like Odis Lee, the way that Kim did?

And would she have a second son, or a fourth daughter?

Already, she was hoping for a daughter, because even though she loved all of her children equally, she just didn't know if she could handle having a son that looked like Odis Lee.

Was this the struggle that Serena Benson had had to go through when she realized she was pregnant with Olivia?

How she wished Serena was still alive so she could ask her.

Suddenly, there was movement beside her, so she reached out and caught the other person by the arm.

"Olivia, wait." she said.

Olivia sat back down and turned her attention to her friend. "What is it?"

"Where are Nick, Audrey, and Alex? Queens?"

"Alex bundled Noah up and took him with her, so they could be with Nick; she volunteered to help keep him sane and the kids asleep. I got a text from Alex after they settled in that said Audrey was already there because Nick called her and asked her to come."

"I need to see them."

"Okay. We can arrange for someone to take you and Leon out there. Bedelia?"

For all of a sudden, Bedelia was overcome with only the kind of sick dread a mother could get when worrying about one of her children.

"Have you heard from Kim?"

Olivia was taken aback. "Not recently, no. Why?"

Just then, Carisi approached the duo, still holding Leon, who was now fast asleep again. Bedelia put her drink down and reached for Leon, having the energy to be attentive to him again. She gave her sleeping son kisses when he was in her arms again, and Leon grinned broadly as he slept on.

Meanwhile, Olivia spoke to her detective when she she realized he had something to say.

"Cough it up, Carisi. This is no time for beating around the bush."

The young man spoke nervously, but mostly because Bedelia was beside Olivia, what he had to say concerned her. "I was just informed by the PD in Murray Hill that Kim was abducted from her rehab center earlier today."