A few days have passed since me and Austin went to the mall. I still cry over that day for I feel I'm not good enough. I think to myself why was he embarrassed to be with me holding my hand; I can't come up with a reason. Me and Austin haven't talked since that day and I've been seeing him a lot less, but I'm going to talk to him again and confront him. I just don't know how.
I woke up in the middle of the night tears streaking down my cheeks. I got up and wiped my eyes over and over then finally I calmed down went to the bathroom. I walked up to the sink and looked at myself in the mirror, my eyes where red and puffy from crying almost all night, and washed my face. Then, I heard a small insignificant knock on my window. I turned around in a rush to see who it was, I was hoping it was Austin and luckily it was. Suddenly I just smiled and I ran toward the window totally forgetting about any self doubt I had. I greeted him with a tight hug around his neck and a big kiss on the cheek because I really missed him. I felt his cheek wrinkle up into a smile under the warmth of my lips and out of joy I pulled back and quickly kissed him on his smiling lips.
He pulled back and cocked his head to one side, the smile still on his face the entire time, he then stepped back, allowing my arms to fall off of him, and climbed into my bedroom and sat on my bed. He smiled at me and patted the area of the need next to him for me to sit down. I smiled back at him sad down and kissed him quickly on the lips. Again he pulled away and just smiled at me. After a few minutes of this cycle he finally opens up his mouth to speak, saying "Taylor I'm sorry for not speaking with you for a couple days and avoiding you. It's not anything that you did it's just that i am a bit scared. I've never really had a relationship like this before and i don't know how to react at all to being with you. I really care about you." He paused for a second and kissed me passionately then broke the kiss rapidly. Then Austin got on his knees and asked do you forgive me in the cutest way possible. All i could do was smile and hug tackle him to the ground in one love filled embrace. At that moment the years returned but not years of sorrow but instead tears of joy and happiness.
