Your sitting on your bed.
Your family are watching T.v.
So many things are running through your mind
You really think this is it
You've planned everything
weather its a gun, Rope, Pills, a blade or what ever you can think of to end this.
your ready
You dont want your life anymore
You cant stand the pain
You load the gun or put your head though the rope hanging from the roof or open the pill bottle or put the blade against your skin
what ever you do its time
It will all be over soon.
youve written a note saying sorry you couldnt find any hope, Sorry you werent good enough, Sorry you felt worthless, Sorry for Everything
The time is now
youve made up your mind
your life is gone you cant have it back
Your sibling walks into your room to say sorry about the fight you just had
they find your life less body
They scream and cry
your parents came running in
your mum cant believe her eyes her babys Gone
your dad the strongest man you know crumbles
Your dad gets up and calls 111
he can hardly get the words out
"Mmmy Sons is Dddead hee Killed himself"
The person on the other end trys to calm your dad down in a few minutes a ambulace is outside they take your life less body away
Theres nothing left of you
The whole town is shattered
your schools isnt the same and it never will be
your parents are made to go back to work so they can pay for your funeral
No ones been in your room
it stays the same, the way you like it
No ones seen the note
everyones blaming Them self
Your sisters and brothers think its there folt cause they didnt help you with the chores or they said stuff that upset you
Your parent think its there folt cause they weren't there for you enough.
your little sister went back to school saying "My brother killed himself because of me"
That kid that bumped into you while you were walking to your next class thought it was his fault for not saying sorry
That girl/boy you liked she felt like if she didnt reject you, youd still be here
your teacher quit teaching because he thought he wasnt a good enough teacher and gave up on his profession.
Your best friend
He thinks that if he was there for you more you would be fine. He self harms every night cause he misses you and cant take the pain.
From the little things to the big things people still blamed them self because you showed them they didnt try hard enough.
That girl that tried to help you that was just like you and felt worthless and thought no one cared, She felt like she didnt try hard enough to make you realise everyone cared
She stopped talking to everyone
she went silent
She would visit your grave and talk to you and only you. She tried to find Hope but gave up. She'll be joining you soon cause she cant take the pain.
Nothings the same and it never will be
Your Gone
Your not coming back
You thought no one cared
Look what those few minutes did
those minutes that you took your precious life away.
Now its Never coming back.
You know that quote " Sticks and stones may break your bones but words can Never Hurt You"
Thats a Massive Lie.
Hold On Pain Ends
Have Hope
You may think suicides the only answer but think what will it do to your family, friends and community, people care I promise.
The strom cant last Forever.
I know its Hard.
If you ever need anything Im here, I care. Im a message away and I enjoying meeting people.
