Chase

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ni jannpd

I think we need to end this before things get worse... I can't understand you anymore... I'm just tired of all your stupid reasons! Let's stop this, Elmo. Please. I've had enough.

I have been reading her last text for sixteen times now. And I'm still trying to sink in all her words. But I guess, I'm not dreaming or something. One thing is for sure, we are done.

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I can't sleep. It's 11:50 pm and I'm having my fourth cup of coffee which is unusual, by the way. I just can't accept what happened last night... that Julie broke up with me.

Nagpunta ako sa condo unit niya earlier today para maka-usap siya. I knew she was inside because I could hear the sound of her noisy electric fan moving. I knocked for like five times but she didn't open her door. I tried to call her cell but she didn't pick up. Iniiwasan niya talaga ako. I waited for like two hours in front of her door, praying that she will eventually open the door and let me in. Pero hindi nangyari. Biglang nawala 'yong ingay ng electric fan niya. Silence. Then, a piece of paper appeared under the door. It said, GO AWAY! Naghanap ako ng pen sa bag ko, good thing I had one. I wrote, Please. Talk to me. and I slid it back. I didn't got a reply after about an hour because I heard that she was taking her bath the whole time. Nakita ko ulit 'yong paper kaya napatayo ako from my comfortable Indian sit. GO. AWAY. I wrote at the back of the paper, PLEASE. LET'S TALK. I'M SORRY. I waited again. Kala ko di ko kakayanin. I think that was the longest, mga tatlong oras ata. Bumaba ako para bumili ng pagkain tapos bumalik na agad ako. Lunch time came. I shouted from outside the door, Hindi ka ba nagugutom? Nagluto ka na ba for your lunch, baby? I bought tapsilog across the street. 'Yong favorite mo. Sabay tayo kain... Please? Desperado na kung desperado. Hindi ko na alam gagawin ko. She didn't answered. She never did the whole time I was in front of her door, waiting in vain. She never did open that damn door of hers.

I went home around 9pm, exhausted, and still in deep thought of our break-up. Sawang sawa na siguro talaga siya sa kalokohan ko. Sa ugali ko. From unreplied texts and unanswered calls to missed dates and forgotten monthsaries. I took her love and care for granted. I took HER for granted. I can't blame her for quitting on me. She has been too understanding while I'm too demanding. Ako dapat 'yong gumagawa ng paraan everytime na may small misunderstandings kami pero hindi e. Siya palagi ang may surprise at paraan para magka-ayos kami. Napuno na siya. She put up with all of my childish acts, silly rants and stupid reasons. This time, ako naman. Babawi ako. Siguro naman, hindi pa huli ang lahat para maayos ko 'to. Ako naman ang magbibigay ng extra effort hanggang maging kami ni Julie. Ewan ko ba kasi sa sarili ko na kung kailan nasa akin na 'yong the best girlfriend tapospapakawalan ko lang pala.

I will do everything to win you back. To win your heart back, Julie.

Babalik ako bukas sa condo niya para manligaw ulit. Back to zero nga daw sabi ng iba.

Kaya mo 'yan, Elmokong.