You Should Be Here

Cookout Time

Once G and I got back from the story they put us to work right away.

"Gani go finish that pasta salad for me please." Her mom says.

"And Thiti get back here and make the macaroni." She yelled at me as I was trying to escape the kitchen.

"Come on auntie we was just in the store for two hours and now we gotta cook?" I say whining.

"Word ma. My feet hurt." G added on.

"Don't back talk me! Now cook!" My aunt yelled walking out the kitchen. She always strict. She use to beat me and Gigi's ass all the time.

After all the food was done all my aunts and uncles were around having a good time . Until Gigi opened her big ass mouth.

"So everyone. Since we are all here, Thiti's has something to tell you guys." She yelled.

"Wtf are you talking about Gani!?" I yelled back.

"Well since she won't tell you, I will. Thianna has a girlfriend!" She yelled louder.

"No the fuck she doesn't." My father yelled.

Now I was embarrassed and upset. I wanted to hit Gigi so bad!

"What the hell G?!" I yelled.

"Uhm no. You're not gay. You never were gay. And you're not about to start that gay shit now. You want a husband, kids." My aunt yelled. I saw my mother walking into the house.
"You don't wanna have to get surgery or whatever the hell you have to do to get a baby. Do the natural way! I promise you this is only a phase. It won't last forever."

Now I'm thinking. She's right. I really don't want to be going through all of this. I've always pictured my self in a beautiful white gown marrying my bestfriend (Lindyn). I just don't know any more. Maybe it was good for the moment.

"You're right auntie. Just a phase." I say going in the house to talk to my mother.

"Are you really lesbian?" She looked up at me with disappointment.

"No ma. I'm not gay.. I want to get married to a man and have beautiful babies. But it was good for the moment." I explained to her.

"Okay Thianna don't scare me like this. You know I would disown you for good of you ever come back in this house talking about being a lesbian. We don't do that shit."

"I know ma I know. I love you." I say hugging her.

After Gigi had embarrassed me I went to a park a few blocks down and just sat on the bench thinking. I was already confused about being with Melanie but now my family has me even more confused.

I can't believe Gigi did that to me. Who does she think she is?! Now I was pissed. She never done no shit like this. Now I feel like I can't trust her. I can't believe she through me under the fucking bus.

I went home and locked my door so no one would bother me.

When Gigi got home she tried to talk to me but I had nothing to say to her so I ignored her. I don't even know what to do about Mel.

A couple hours later I texted her..

Mel: I don't think we should see each other any more. My family isn't accepting of it and I was never gay to begin with. I don't think we should be friends either. Sorry.

I text her ending everything. I knew that if we hung around eachother even as friends it wouldn't be right.