Scira Fall Inlove Again

I get to love You

Dear Scott,

This is the hardest thing I've ever had to write to anyone and I hope and pray that I never have to do this again. I'm leaving for good. I won't come back. It will be like I never even existed. Like we never met in my father's class....like we never fell in love. I will always remember you as the boy who remembered my name. I still think about how you swallowed a whole bowl of wasabi. We had fun all that time. It's hard for me to believe that knowing you for 2 years caused so much emotion for me. I'm not Allison. And I still don't know how she could have ever let someone like you go. It must have been hard for her because I feel it now too. The emptiness. When you kissed me for the first time I felt truly happy. Like I finally felt something real for once in my life. New York is a paper town; a fake place.and I'm glad that I became real for you.  I love you Scott McCall. I realized that when we slow danced at the lake house. I realized it when we had sex. I've never met someone more caring and understanding in my entire life. I still wonder how my mother managed to fall in and out of love in 900 years and I don't know if I'll ever have that. At least I know I had my first with you. When you first said you loved me I wanted to say it back right then and there  but you walked away and I never got the chance. However I regret not saying it way before then. Now with my fox out of control I need to leave because the last thing I want to do is hurt the only man I've ever loved. Please don't be sad and don't think of me often. I now know why I'm a Kitsune and why I have so much time to spend in this world. You have changed me for the better Scott McCall and selfishly enough I don't think I'll ever be ready to share a life with someone like you only to lose you in 80 years. Thank you Scott McCall...for everything. Just remember I wouldn't leave you. I'll be there with you every step of the way. Live for yourself and become the great doctor I know you'll be. Love is a luxury I got to have with you and it was the best plan we ever made. I'm never gonna be sorry for that.

Love,
           Kira