Losing You

The day you left me was sad and grey,
Now my thoughts won't go away,
What if I die before I wake,
And what if my life is a mistake?

You were always there for me,
Now that you're gone I can see,
That this will not be easy to handle,
Your life is like a little candle,

You were lit and set on fire,
You burned less when you were tired
You were brightest when you were best,
Now the flame's gone, and you're at rest,

But what if you're really truly dead,
And all you can see is black and red?
What if there is no afterlife,
And "heaven" is just a giant lie?

I question all I've learned before,
And again I close an open door,
I no longer believe what I've been taught
Religion is now a stupid thought

I can't remember why I'm alive,
I don't die but I don't thrive,
I can't decide what to do,
But I know I can't stop missing you

Why'd you leave me all alone,
I went to you when I fell off my throne,
I ruled an empire my life was alright,
Now I'm afraid of the night

The storms inside my head won't leave,
It stormed the night that you left me,
Now when rain falls from the sky,
Rain falls also from my eye

I'm the only one who feels this way,
People don't mean it when they say it's okay,
I don't want to do this anymore,
And I remember the times before

I was young and dumb and I didn't know,
That my life was like a man made of snow,
One little kick could completely ruin me,
Now that kick has come and I can see

They cannot see something's wrong,
Because I'm supposed to be strong,
I won't let them see that I'm not okay,
I guess I'll just keep living this way

I'm so so sorry if this made you frown,
I just wanted to write all this crap down,
I'm sure these rhymes are stupid and dumb,
I just wanted to talk to someone