How am I suppose to tell you things that I myself can't figure out. The last time we talked you blow me off and now U like I know I fucked up but maybe we can make it work. Now I'm sitting here stuck because as I hate you right now is as much as I love you maybe more. You got my heart, I want it back but I still want you to have it. You know you hurt me n you know how angry n hurt I am at you but when Im in your present it's like I get this feeling that I cant explain but it feels so good. I'm feeling so many emotions it's like I love you but I hate you, I want you but I don't, I just want you to hold me and tell me we gone be OK but I don't want you to touch me or say anything to me. When I saw you last night it was like a rush. I had to take in everything I was feeling n Im still taking it in. You told me last night that our song is I hate that I love you and at 1st I didn't get it but now I do n I can say I do hate that I love you, i hate that I care, n I hate that I do need you but I dont want it to be like that. I want to mad at you n say fuk U and let it be but somewhere deep down in me it's just something that won't let it be. Ive had my share of relationships n I know that I can let go n get on but with you its like I don't want to. I want to spend every moment with you but my mind n heart is so confused I just don't know how I can do this. You make my heart melt when U smile at me but make me want to punch the shit out of U. I can't help how I feel when I'm around U and it's like I'm going against everything I hear bout you n how people feel bout you because you still can make me feel like that lil school girl. You still my heart melt when U smile at me, you still make me feel like it's gone be and you against the world but I'm having this struggle in me as in are you really ready for me.
