Do You Understand

What I did to deserve hatred

I'm not a good person.
I put everyone in a bad mood.
I can't do nothing right.
I have hurt to many people.
I don't deserve friends.
I'm not what they expect.

They will yell at me.
They will lie to me.
The will avoid me.
They will run away from me.
They might try to kill me.
They will do anything to hurt me.

I have hurt others.
I have sinned over many things.
I have lied to help them.

Only to realize they used me.
Only to know I'm a puppet with strings attached.

Knowing that some will find out.
They will try to pull the strings to control me.

Bend me to their every will.

And I... I just let them do as the please.
Knowing that it was wrong of me to let them have me.
Letting them use me.
Taking my kindness for granted.

Making me do there work.

While I'm just asking for some why of forgiveness. Only to have more hate come right back at me. I regret it to this day. I don't know if I deserve kindness. But what I do deserve. .

Is hate.