"Samantha..."

Letting go of everything.

He looked at me with his pale brown eyes before walking away without saying a damn thing. "Why? Why won't he say anything to me..?" I ask myself "This isn't fair he always tells me ANYthing. So why?.." I sigh and decide to brush it off I mean maybe he's just sad or, something else I don't know.

He looked back while walking but, he didn't say anything just.. kept walking like I had been an invisible wall. I remember asking myself why he wouldn't talking to me.. had I known this was why I would have done something..

As i sit to look over his note my eyes get glossy and i feel my tears starting to form and drip down my pale cheeks his note reads~ "Samantha, I love you and always have. I'm sorry I'm leaving you but I can't take much more of this sick fucking world... please don't cry.. i know no one else will so.. please do not miss me and please just forget me like everyone else do not grieve for i am not worth it please do not think of me and please i ask of you... keep that beautiful smile on your face no matter what... and this isn't goodbye i will see you again... one day.. I Love You.."

"He... He's actually gone... He actually left me... Thinking of everything..." i grip my sleeves and start to cry "dammit.." i say under my breath "Why didn't he tell me this was going on? Why didn't he just talk to me..?" tears start to stream from my eyes faster "I could have helped him.. i could have done something..." i stop and dry my eyes to the sound of my aunt Grace calling me downstairs.

"Sam, come down here please" i get up and walk down to her with dinner on the table and her with a smile "You hungry?" i shrug and walk to her giving her a big hug

"Aunt Grace... I miss Jase..."

"I know you do sweet heart" she rubs my back and hugs me tightly wrapping my her skinny arms around me.

"It's been a year already since he's been gone... And today is his birthday... And his death day... I hope he's okay. Where ever it is he went.."

She smiles lightly "Hey i got us a cake to celebrate and flowers for his grave stone if you are feeling up to walking down there" I simply nod and sit at the table.

"You have a good day?" i ask quietly

"Yes, just work" she chuckles "busy busy busy" I smile and start eating. Tonight was pizza night, every Friday we had pizza or take out. We finish and i do the dishes. At about 8:30 me and Aunt Grace walked out of the house and started for the cemetery in which he is buried. As we arrive she hands me the flowers and i sit by his stone.

"Hi Jase... i miss you... i hope you are doing well where ever it is you went and... i love you" aunt Grace walks over to me and smiles.

We leave slightly later and when we get home i trudge upstairs to my room and sigh then sit on my bed. I lie back on my bed and close my eyes slowly drifting off to sleep. I wake in the morning to a phone call from Grace; i slowly pick it up. "Hey, aunt Grace"

"Hey sweetheart, did you sleep alright?"

"Yeah i slept alright, where are you?"

"I got called into work. But tonight is our night alright? Movies, Cookies, Ice cream," i hear her chuckle. "Anything you want, alright?"

I smile "Alright aunt Grace, i love you"

"I Love You Too, and i should be home around six have a good night, oh and keep the doors locked please."

"Okay i will"

I hear a click of her hanging up and put down my phone and lay there for a second. i finally move myself out of bed and change my clothes then walk down stairs.