Memento Mori
~ Crywank
Everyone I love is gonna die
And I will die as well
Think about this before I sleep
And have since I was a child
"I saw that you were perfect, and so I loved you. Then I saw that you were not perfect and I loved you even more."
~ Angelita Lim
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Him.
Waking up next to Odessa was like a dream. Instead of waking up cold and alone, or someone I had picked up from the club, I found the most
beautiful woman next to me. In my bed.
Turning over I spend time to gawk at her features. I know it is impolite to stare but I can not help it. She is so gorgeous. I take time to admire her. Her perfect caramel skin, no freckle or blemish. Long dark hair splayed out on the pillow, and soft pink full lips that I want to kiss again and again.
Realizing she has a meeting in an hour I get up and call my assistant. In fifteen minutes breakfast should be ready for her, and I can make sure she eats before I take her home to get ready.
Yesterday was such a dream. And it went so well. When we kissed I just wanted to ravish her right there on the balcony, but I knew I had to restrain myself. Something has happened to her to make her closed off, and scared. And I do not want to do something drastic to push her away.
This is all new to much and I can't help but think, what the hell is wrong with me?
I never put this much thought or effort into any girl. I've never let a girl wear my clothes and I've never ever let a girl stay the night. I'm a player. I don't do this but for some reason when I'm with Odessa I want to do all this. I want to be gentle and kind. I want to do things for her. I want her to depend on me.
She has me wrapped around my finger.
My thoughts are interrupted with the doorbell.
My assistant is at the door with the food, and let's me know my schedule for today is fully open before disappearing again to finish some work.
Placing the food on a tray I bring it into the bedroom. Setting it on the nightstand next to her I attempt to wake her up. It only takes a couple minutes before she wakes up, a little disoriented.
She yawns and rubs her eyes with the ball of her fist. I couldn't help but be mesmerized by everything that was her. God I sound like a fucking sap.
"Good morning" she whispers. My tshirt is hanging off her shoulder and she has a lazy smile that makes me want to kiss her. So I do.
Leaning in I place a small quick kiss on her lips. Realizing that wasn't enough for me I reached behind her neck and pulled her to me. The kiss was sweet and passionate and I was loving every second.
I needed to stop before I took her right here in the very moment.
"Good morning." Grabbing the tray I lay it on her lap. Her eyes light up and she looks at me confused.
"Is this.... for me" she asks in a light confused voice. Of course it's for her doesn't she know that she deserves only the best.
I nod and her eyes become a bit watery. Moving the tray she pulls me into her arms before hugging me tightly. I'm shocked at first but I soon retaliate, pulling her into me.
"No one has ever done any of this for me" she says, smile growing by the second. How could no one ever treat her like the queen she is.
God I'm whipped after the first date.
"Anything for you love. But hurry and eat so that I can take you home and you can get ready. You have a meeting at 11 remember?"
She gives me a grateful look before moving to her breakfast. I can tell she is enjoying it and I can't help but be proud I got it for her.
After about twenty more minutes she's ready to go, with her bag filled with her clothes from last night. She's still clad in my clothes since I asked her to keep them. She looks amazing in them.
"Love are you ready!?" Odessa walks out the bedroom with her clothes towards the door. I grab the bag out her hand and hold her hand with my other.
As we walk she swings our hands a bit before we hop in the elevator. Mornings with Odessa were peaceful, and everything I wanted. I was so used to getting up and going to work alone I forgot what it was like to have company so early in the morning. I am not a morning person but Odessa makes me want to be.
In a blur where downstairs and in the car. And then she is to work but I don't want to be away from her. Something is going on with me and I don't know what to do.
Holding open the car door for her, she gracefully slides into the car. She mutters a thanks before I shut the door, jogging over to the side. Hopping in I step on it. I basically begged her to stay the night, and if she's late to work I'll feel so terrible about everything.
God I'm such a sap.
We get there shortly and I get out again, opening the door and walking her to her loft.
"This is me" she says, looking down while she plays with the rings on her fingers. She looks nervous and somewhat..... upset? She's so guarded I can't tell. When is she gonna let me in.
"Are you alright love." I reach to move her hair behind her ear and her eyes flash with fear before looking back down. Doesn't she know I'll never hurt her?
"Yea, just a little out of it" she says while she shoots me a fake small smile.
"Ok. I'll call you?" I ask hopefully and she responds with a nod before starting to unlock her door. Soon she's inside and I'm outside alone. Missing her already.
What the hell is going on with me?
I end up knocking on the door quickly again before I leave and she opens the door confused. Before she can speak I grab her wrist pulling her into me.
As she lets out a small gasp I attach my lips to hers kissing her softly and smoothly. The kiss is slow but rushed at the same time. It's messy and possessive and I can't help but be addicted to how good she tastes.
Pulling away I bit my lip, admiring her red cheeks and smile. Kissing her again softly on the cheek I say goodbye before walking away, a smirk glued on my lips.
I'm so whipped. And I like it.
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Hello my lovelies
Sorry this is so late! Been on so many vacations for once :))) also I just turned 17 so happy birthday to me
Thank you so much for reading
Lots of Love 👼🏽
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