trouble// J.S

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I've been trying to hide from the world for over 3 days. I've only went to school 1 time in the 3 days. Jacob has been trying to talk to me.. I just ignore him. I know I have to face him one day, but hopefully that will not be soon. I've been really depressed. I cut once. But Layla saved me..

2 days later.
Layla woke me up my jumping up and down on my bed. Today is the day that we fix you up!! She said excitedly!! I moaned in the pain of my shattered heart. She helped me up and said "where do I start".. I'll call dd and Evelyn for them to help.!

When they came they dropped all of their makeup on my bed and lots of clothes..

I haven't seen the sun In a week.. I miss when I was happy and joyful.. There's no chance of that happening again. I stared off in space thinking about why this had to happen to me¿ what did I do? I started bawling out of nowhere and The squad hugged me till I couldn't feel my body. I said "what am doing with my self, I feel worthless empty" al of them said in union "your the reason why the world is spinning" I started crying into their shoulders saying I love you guys..

Ily I heard them say.
Now let's fix u up:) I smiled and said tysm guys idk what I would do without you beautiful people:)

I ended up looking like this

with these clothes

I actually looked pretty for once..

LETS GO ON A WALK I YELL! YASS they all say. We started walking and laughing at nothing😂This is the first time I feel happy in a long long time.

We walked pasted Jacobs house and we hid in a bush to watch if he comes out. (Yes we be stalking)
I gasp when I see him walk out. he looked...

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horrible. he had black bags under his hazel eyes . He's eyes were red, he sat down on the porch and started crying, like crazy. They all looked at me. I looked back at them and gave them a concerned look. I looked back and he started yelling at himself. , and talking to himself.

Jacob pov:

I walking out on the porch and just poured my soul out onto the empty streets.
WHY DID THIS HAPPEN . IM SO STUPID. I PLAYED THE ONLY PERSON WHO MADE ME FEEL HAPPY. I HATE MY SELF. MY HEART FEELS LIKE ITS GOING TO EXPLODE. HELL COME TAKE ME AWAY. I just started bawling into my hands. I pulled out a razor from my back pocket and put it to my wrist and said one for being alive. I kept bawling my eyes out when I heard someone call my name.

ARi pov:

When I saw Jacob cutting I couldn't take it anymore. I realized he really still loved me.
i ran up to him crying and threw the blade into the pond. I jumped up into his arms and said "Jacob never pull a stunt like that ever evER AGAIN. we cried into eachothers shoulders. I'm sorry we said. I've missed your hugs you I said. I've missed your kisses. Jacob said as we leaned in. Im nothing without you Ari.. I love you.
I love you too I said while crying❤️