Why Is Life So Hard? (Niall Horan fan fiction)

Can I Move On?

Autum's POV:

The troubles of my past are long gone now, but we still have some fights and bloody arguments here and there... I mean it's nothing new but it sure does hurt a lot... Not many people know what I go through and when they do they usually laugh in my face or say that this is what I deserve... I've had so many things happen to me over the years... It's not even funny... I don't understand why people are so mean...

My heart has been ripped all to prices and has been thrown away... I'm still nice to those who hate me but I still have trouble keeping my smile on my face...

Many people don't see that... Why is life so hard? Life is meant to learn from our mistakes and not make them worse...

Life just isn't fair is it? I doubt that it will ever be...

" Autum honey, you have to say something," The sound of my boyfriend Heath made me just and start to attack... He knew me all too well, he grabbed my fist as it came flying towards his face.

He smiled and said:

" I know you too well, I didn't mean to startle you."

" Its ok for now, but please don't do it again," I smiled halfheartedly.

" Ok, but do you have practice today?" Heath asked me while lacing his fingers with mine.

" No I'm off today, I have RAT TEAM practice tomorrow though," I said smiling a little... I love RAT TEAM... they are my only family and they taught me how to control my actions and have gotten me ready for and attack anytime and anywhere...

" Oh ok, so do you want to go out and eat or do you want to just hang out at my place?" Heath asked.

" I think I want to go out and eat... I still don't think it's time to go to your house yet..." I said hoping he wouldn't get mad as I mentally crossed my fingers.

" It's fine, I understand," Heath said stopping us and pulls my head into his direction and kissed my nose softly making me smile.

That's why I love him he knows how to make me happy.

I also like his personality, he makes me smile when I'm in pain because I hurt myself at practice... He understands what I got through and he keeps me away from home as long as he wants because he doesn't want me to go home and get the living hell beat out of me... He treats me like a queen...

I looked into his eyes and smiled as I kissed his lips softly making him smile between our kisses.

" Ready to go?" Heath asked as I grabbed his hand again and started to walk again.

" Yeah, I am... I'm hungry I haven't eaten all day..." I said to him while I kept walking.

" Ok, I know you hate school food," Heath said.

... We entered subway as I took his hand again and walked to the counter and started to order as so did Heath... I looked around as I was waiting for them to make our sandwiches... I paused, I noticed somebody sitting alone in the corner and he looked oddly familiar... I couldn't help but stare at him... The poke in my side brought my attention back to Heath who had already gotten my sandwich and was motioning for me to follow him to a table, so I obeyed and did what he wanted. We ate in silence as it was time for us to go, but before we left I snuck one more peek at the familiar stranger... And he was staring at me too which made me blush and turn my head away quickly... I'm embarrassed now but I didn't care, he was cute though...

Heath had walked me home and said his goodbyes and I love you's before he left and gave me a kiss as I entered the house and immediately walked back out... that wasn't something I wanted to see...

I saw Heath walking home so I didn't bother him as I took a walk around the corner opposite of the way Heath had went... Then I stopped as I rounded the next corner and saw a familiar pair of blue eyes and a head full of bleached blonde hair... Why did he look so familiar? I know he's the guy from subway... but why does he look like I've known him for years that's when he spoke:

" Hello Autum."

That was it... When he started to speak my mind flew... I know him, he's Niall Horan... My ex-best friend... He lost my friendship when he lied to everyone at school saying that he was getting some of it out of me... Please I'm saving myself for marriage...

I looked at him and ducked my head and walked apart him to continue my sweet walk around the neighborhood. He turned around and started to talk to me...

" Autum please just let me explain."

I turned on him with a annoyed look on my face...

" There's nothing to explain... I've been through so much more than others and I'm still trying so hard to smile... I'm training to be in the army now and I'm still fighting for my freedom of having to walk home everyday and get beat on as soon as I walk through the door of my house... I still fight for others to realize what I'm going through, but I'm done fighting, I give up... but if you don't like me, don't say anything to me because you think you think you know me, doesn't mean you do... maybe next time think before you act... my life was already bad before you entered it, and when you did everything I had built back up fell right back down to the ground... So just leave and never come back, but mast of all leave me alone," I said and turned back around and started to walk away.

...Note...

What do you guys think? Do you like it? I hope you do because most of this stuff actually happened to me... I know I shouldn't of put it in here but I did because I think it would make an interesting story... Please comment and vote... Message me saying how you like it!!! Thanks loves!!!!!