Regrets

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When I first put my head down I was trying to sleep, but the only thing I got was regret. I wasn't sure what did I exactly regret, knowing you? I don't think, I was glad I met you, I was glad I found someone like that. I thought you were- I thought you were my soulmate and all that good talk. Maybe it was falling for you that I regret? But falling for you wasn't my choice, I pushed you away, but you were willing to stay, maybe that's why I fell, and oh how hard I fell, I fell so hard when I woke up I was somewhere else, I wasn't able to recognize a thing, I thought it was your charm that made me feel like that, I thought it's what we had in between, but I realized it was just a dream, it was just what I wanted to convince myself, everyone around me was happy and loved and I guess I was overwhelmed by the thought of actually finding someone- or as they say - the one. I was so overwhelmed with the thought of having you I pushed everyone else away. And now I lost it all, because all I did was for you and you were just an illusion, you were just an image I created to feel warm, to feel loved shall I say?

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