The bomb digz: Was it Love at first sight?

The meet up

Today was the meet up and I agreed to meet up with Daniel. It was two days after laying in bed and crying my eyes😭 out until I realize that I needed an answer. An answer to why he wanted to end us, 💔or to why he wants to just give up on us. He told me to meet him at a local pizza 🍕place where we both lived next to. I arrived and there he was just sitting there waiting for me but as soon as I saw him I already shed a tear, I ran quickly🏃🏻 into the women's🚻 restroom so he wouldn't see me. I looked at myself in the mirror so heart broken💔 but so weak, I pulled myself together and said, "you got this and if he doesn't want you maybe he's not the one after all, you have a whole life 💭a head of you to find out🔎who's your love one ❤️but who's going to be there for you for the rest of your life." 🔑After saying those words I finally had the courage and walk 🚶🏻to the table, and as I sat down he looked at me. 👀I can tell from the way he was looking at me that he knew I was broken inside.😔He started talking and he said,"before you say anything I want you to know that I love you and I will always be there for you❤️, I didn't want to break up like this in fact I didn't want to break up at all." I asked him, " then why, why do all of this all I want to hear from you is for you to say that you're playing and this isn't all true but I know that I'm not going to hear that 😔but the least you can do is give me a good reason on why you choose to break up, didn't these months and years mean anything to you?" He began to say," Of course it did everything about you made me realize how much I fell in love❤️ with you every single day, I wish this all was a joke but it's not and my reason is that our lives are so confusing and complicated, you go to college so far from NY 🗽and it's so hard going to see each other because the band 🎶🎤and I always go and travel ✈️and I think it's best for us to focus on what we want and just to wait on perfect timing." I continued by," but I know what I want and I might sound crazy but I know that I want you and I always want you to be here. I know it's complicated but we can work this out together." He said, " I want you too but whatever you say can't changed this I will always love you and I will always here but I can't change my decision, this is a goodbye, I love you." He walked 🚶🏻out and I realized that he walked out of my life for good. I waited a couple minutes and ran 🏃🏻into the car 🚘just crying and saying to myself that love isn't true, love is just sadness and never happiness.💔