I once was clean for 1 and a half years
I was so happy then it got bad again
Someone told me to go die in a hole
And got called so many names
I also lost a lot of my friends
I did not understand why but then I thought for a while
I told my teacher one time when that all happened I could not eat I was crying so much I just want to go to a different school thinking that it would go away
But of course I thought more and then it hit me, I won't leave me it will follow
I'm not going to let it go but I'm ready to move on and if it happens again I will immediately will tell someone and I never want to go through all of that again
And it might just be me not wanting to be me
I'm a girl right now but I don't think my brain is even if I do put make-up on, I just don't think it's right in my head I hate my body
