This chapter is dedicated to @nayamellee 🙏🏼
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When the weekend was over and I was back in school, I somehow wanted Kevin to be the sweetest thing ever again.
I swear my heart fluttered when he said I looked 'smoochie'.
The second I walked into school, I knew that he wasn't gonna be sweet.
He was already kissing some blonde bimbo against the lockers.
You've got to be kidding me, right?
It lowkey stung, it actually stung ode. I looked at the floor and begged to be convinced I didn't care, and that I don't want him. The only thing the scratched up tile did was hold me from the small tear that dropped out of my eye.
I don't care. I don't care. I don't care.
I breathed in and looked up. He laughed with a group of friends, his arm around that stupid girl. She clung on to him like a leach on his side. I felt like throwing up.
Kevin looked over and made eye contact with me, and for a second I thought he felt bad, and forgot about the leach desperately clinging to him.
All those thoughts went away when he smirked. The dumb ass smirked. Is this a game? His bipolar ass game where he flirts and makes me jealous and all this shit that I don't deserve.
Let me tell you something, Kevin.
Two can play at this game
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"I'm in." I said, walking up to Cassidy, Aurora, Alyssa, and Becca.
"What?" Cassidy gave me the most confused look ever.
"I'm in. I'm gonna play the player." I breathed out, shutting my eyes.
"Are you serious?" Aurora's growing excitement was obvious in her eyes and the way her hair was bouncing.
"I'm being deadass. How do I do it?"
I stared at the evil smirk plastered on her pale face.
This can't be good.
She took my arm and dragged me into the bathroom, immediately pampering. The girls helped too, and I had 5 girls working on my physical appearance at the same time.
Some girls walked in and out of the bathroom givin us funny looks. I gave them sympathetic looks.
"God damm," Becca grinned.
"What?" I asked them all, furrowing my eyebrows. I turned and faced the mirror. "Damn."
"You look hottt," Aurora said as I looked at myself.
They stripped off my pink shirt, revealing my white tank top. They threw Aurora's leather jacket over my shoulders and switched our shoes. I was now wearing black combat boots. They cut and folded my skinny jeans so they were shorts.
"Yo that was a little too far. I loved those jeans." I pouted. Cassidy rolled her eyes and pushed me back towards the mirror.
My lips were bright red and my eyes were coated in black eyeliner. I looked like a commercial girl. My light curly hair was still natural. The only thing that hadn't changed.
"Now who's ready to play the player's game?"
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I walked out the ladies bathroom, attempting to look confident. "Stop trying so hard," Cassidy laughed in my ear. I nodded my head and continued down the hall, and soon ending with only Aurora, Rebecca, and I.
We walked towards Kevin, who still had a leach. This time it was a girl obviously fake red hair. What a douche.
He glanced at me and then back at his group, but once I processed in his brain, he turned to look at me slowly. He eyes were wide open and I wouldn't be surprised if he drooled right there. I winked at him and smirked.
Kevin's POV:
She looked so perfect. I couldn't even bare to look at her because I wanted her so badly.
I am the most bipolar thing on earth but damn. I really wanted her. I almost wanted to push this chick off of me, ion even remember her name. Scarlet? Or is it Victoria? No, that was the girl earlier.
I wish it was Bethany clinging to me. Maybe I wouldn't be so annoyed, maybe I would cling back.
Nah Kevin, chill you don't settle for one chick. Nothing will change you. Right now, you get what you want and you don't want a relationship. I feel no ways for Bethany.
Though she looked really beautiful standing over there, flirting with Zac.
It broke my heart when she started to. Maybe because I'm jealous that he can get her and I can't.
I can't seem to get through to her. I don't think it's possible.
I don't know what I want with her but it's somethin.
For once I know how it feels to be the jealous one.
In that moment I knew what was happening.
She's playing my own little game, and lemme tell you, she gonna lose.
No one plays the player, that ain't how it works. The player plays the girl.
And I want Bethany and she doesn't want me, I will do whatever power I have to change her mind.
Sure, I got mixed feelings for this girl. The one who stood up to me and doesn't automatically fall for me.
The one who doesn't want me.
I don't even know what got me to say she looked cute sometime back. I think it was a morning, I don't remember. I felt weird and I felt nervous. Something I ain't felt before. No girl has made all giddy like that.
I couldn't tell if the tingling was good or bad. Did I really wanna know?
Fuck I am so confuzzled.
Sometimes I have feelings for and then other times I want nothin to do with her. I can only imagine how confused she is.
I can tell myself I don't want her, but do I?
I do.
In this moment I know what I want and it's her. I wanna be good for her. The jealousy of her with that guy hit me like a train. I wanna be with her and I want her to love me and not be like any other girl, and I already know how different she is.
Buh how do I get her?
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Oh my lordy 👀
Man I'm legit so proud of myself for updating SOOO much today 💀
Guess this song!:
Now everytime I see your girl she go ludacris like ayeeee
Walk into the lobby wasspoppin
I got a girl that's from Cali
And all she wanna do is get litt
I said we was in the hotel
I was bouta make a movie
She was like
Didn't finish the rest bc then it'll be TOO easy 🙂
THANKS FOR READING, AGAin!
Love yaaaa ❤️
-Julie 💛
