My weird poetry

Destroyed

My heart beats
And everything feels wrong
It beats so hard
I cannot stand it

It is too strong for me
I can't live this way
You tell me what to do
What I have to think

But this is killing me
Inside

And it's not far away from the edge
To the real death

Stop it as long as you can
Otherwise I'll go
Cause I can't live anymore
I feel ugly

Pain is something I can't hold on to
Please let me go

NOW

I'm not with you
My hands are shaking
My heart is breaking
My thoughts are dying
And my heart is crying