Finding You.

1.Ryder

Ryder's POV

"We're done."

Two words. Two words that changed everything. Two words that broke me.

Hayley had always been the type of girl to always have a smile on her face. To be there even when you said you wanted to be alone. To hug you when you where sad ,even when no one else around you noticed. Hayley loved books , and she loved music. She loved her friends so much and she made everyone happy. She made me happy.

Hayley broke up with me at the start of junior year.

No explanations , just two words.  I loved her. I loved her more than I loved myself. Maybe it was the fact that it was such a surprise that made it hurt more .  I was a mess after the breakup. It was endless days of me just feeling like shit. It was so painful and I didn't think I could feel a pain worse than this , but I was wrong , I could.

Five months after the breakup I got a random call from one of my closes friends who was also befriends with Hayley. She was crying and could barely speak.

"Maya what's wrong?" I asked lowly .

"Ryder she died." She sobbed through the phone . I was confused and scared.

"Maya who are you talking about?"  I asked worriedly.

" Hayley" she whispered her voice low . I stop listening after that. At that moment all I could hear was my head saying " Hayles dead. Dead . Dead.." 

I later found out that Hayley had been diagnose with lung  cancer about 10 months before the break up . 6 months before the break up they had told her she didn't have much time left. Maya explained to me that she broke up with me because she felt dead already. She didn't want to make me be with her because she said I didn't deserve someone who was dying.   I deserve someone living and happy.

I cried the most I have ever cried. I still cry .  It's been a year since her death. I'm staring senior year.

My names Ryder Black. I'm 18 years old , I have a younger sister and an older brother . I live with my mom. I'm the footballs captain and quarterback. I'm consider "popular" but I don't give shit about half the people who think that.  I'm heartbroken over a girl who is dead , and I'm done with love.

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May's POV

" May lets go" Maya whined.

"Maya shut up " I groaned as I moved in bed .

Maya and me had met in summer.   It was in the beach. I usually like to walk my dog in the beach and watch the sunset , but in this  special day as I walked  I got interrupted when someone had bump into me spilling the drink they had . It was Maya's brother.  Jason was 16 but was the biggest flirt since the day we first met. I remember I was wearing a white tank top the day he spilled his water all over me. I was wearing my bathing suit under which was black. He stared at my chest for about 2 minutes , mouth open making me want to burst  out laughing. Maya came running  towards us hitting Jason on the head making me laugh. After that day we just clicked and became friends . We then  realized we went to the same school , but we had never met. Now a day before the start of school , and our senior year  she wanted me to meet her best friends.  I was scared. Terrified.

" May please " she whined, and I knew she wouldn't stop until I  gave in.

"Fine." I grumpily said getting out of bed.
I grabbed a flower dress that Maya had insisted in me wearing for the past month since she had mentioned me meetings her friends. I quickly took a shower not washing my hair since I wanted to curl it . I put in on and walked out.

" You look amazing " Maya said grinning.

" I know." I said making her laugh. I quickly brushed my hair before turning the curling iron on. I curled the tips of my hair before grabbing the bangs in front of my hair and bringing them to the back , putting a boby pin. I put on some mascara and lipstick . Ready.

I turn to look at at Maya as I see her taking pictures of me.

"Maya what are you doing?" I smiled as she took another picture.

" I'm sending this to my best friends so they see how beautiful my other best friend is " she grinned. I smiled. I put on my white converse before looking up at her.

"Let's go."

Ryder's POV (Now)

*ding*

I look down at my phone and noticed that I had gotten a text from the group chat of Maya , Ashley, David and me . It was a picture. I opened the text and saw that David and Ashley had texted back to a picture Maya had send .

Remember my house tonight , you're meeting this beauty I know you guys will love her -Maya.

David had texted back

She's hot , glad we're meeting her ;)

I rolled my eyes.
Ashley had texted

She's adorable really exited

I decided to look at the picture.  The girl was standing in front of a mirror. She was wearing a white dress with blue flowers and her hair was curled at the tips. Her head was tilted to the side and she had a big smile on her face. 

She wasn't hot.
She was gorgeous. 

I texted back

see you later guys

And shut my phone off. 
She stayed  in my head.
She reminded me of her.
Her smile.
Her hair.

Fuck.