Scared

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Zendaya P.O.V

"Trevor I can't" I said to Trevor walking out of the recording booth into the wide and open hallway of Hollywood Records.

"Z LISTEN TO ME PLEASE" Trevor said coming after me. I walked down the hall trying hard to block out his voice.

"HEY,Hey, hey Z please hear me out" Trevor said blocking my path for the exit.

" I really don't want to talk about this right now." I told him side steping him, only to have my path blocked again.

" Z why do you doubt me?" He asked me. oh he wants a response.

" Why do I doubt you? well it may have something to do with the fact that you could have any girl you want and your picking me. I really don't want to apart of your cruel joke and I definitely don't want to end up heart broken! " I said to him trying not to make my emotions surface. I looked down and walked right pass him.Before I can even take 10 steps forward he pulled me into his hard rock chest.

" Baby, I don't want another girl, all I want is you. I don't need another girl like I need you.I really don't know what I will do if you were not here with me or in my life. YOU can't tell me that my love for you is not real. This isn't for my sick pleasure, this,us being together is not to tear you down. My heart is yearning to be with you but you keep denying me access to your love. I'm almost positive that you feel the same way."  he said looking into my eyes. I had to look away from his eyes because of all the emotion lying behind it. My first reflex was to lie in his face but I couldn't. He deserve to hear the truth.

" I do have feelings for you Trev but I don't want to end up with a broken heart" ughhhhh love is a pain in the neck.

" Then all we have to do is make sure that doesn't happen" he said while removing some of my hair out my face. I stopped him and turned the other way to continue my journey for the exit sign.

"Trevor is not that easy" I said to him, knowing that he'll be following me to the exit.

" It is that easy, as long as you trust me to always be faithful to you than we shouldn't have a problem." He said .

" Trev, don't make promises you can't keep" I told him finally making our way outside of the building

" Baby, who said  I  wasn't going to keep it?  I am more than capable of being faithful to you, all I need is your love to keep me grounded and thats all it takes."  Trevor said with so much passion behind the words. He flashed a small smile my way and that only made my knees went weak.

" I'm sorry Trevor but I can't" I told him straight in his face, He looked disorientated and I took that as the chance to run. I turned the corner heading in the direction of the park. I so have to think this through. I  fiinally got there and ran further into the park and sat on the bench, not wanting to be found. For the first time through out all this love 'drama' , I let the tears fall. I'm so stupid. He WANTS to be with me , I WANT to be with him, and yet I still push him away. I guess you could say I'm scared or maybe even afraid to love, but I WANT to be able to trust Trevor. If I have to fall in love, I'll rather it be with a person I know inside out then with a stranger.

Trevor's P.O.V

Her words sank in and hit me right in the gut, but thats not going to make me give up on her.  As soon as I came back to earth I ran in the same direction as her. I know where she is going so immediately took off towards the park. When I got there, I ran more into the park knowing well that if she was hoping not to be found, she wouldn't be anywhere near the entrance of the park. I stopped spotting the brunette beauty sitting on the bench with tears running down her cheeks. The sight of her crying made me feel kind of guilty. I calmed my breathing and walked over to her not looking for an answer, but to be able to soothe the pain and be the shoulder she can cry on.

Zendaya's  P.O.V

I sat there quietly letting the tears flow, not even noticing a person sitting next to me. I heard someone clear their throat. I looked up already having a hunch of who the person is.

" Trevor I-" I got cut off by Trevor speaking.

" Z, I'm not here to question or beg for answers from you. I'm here because I can't bear to see you cry, especially over something I did." He said looking into my eyes and pulling me into his lap. " I just want to soothe the pain and be in your life" He countinue making more tears fall. I leaned back into his embrace and litterally tried to force the tears to stop.

" Trevor, I love you, honestly I really do and I don't want to lose you either. I know you said you don't want a answer but your getting one anyway." I told him because its true. He stayed quiet , so I continued." When you told me you loved me at fist I thought it was some type of cruel joke because I always had a crush on you. It was totally crazy because you actually feel the same way but the idea of dating you or anbody else is completely foreign to me and I got scared. I panic and I just started to push you away. You wouldn't give up and believe me it was hard to keep a straight face when you were just telling me what you see and thought of me and how you were willing to wait and never cheat and all of those beautiful words you spoke that anybody would think you stole from shakespeare. I was overwhelmed with emotions and I just need to clear my head. Now everything is so clear. There will be a time when I'm going to have to start dating and I'm just going to have to face the fact that the guy I choose won't be perfect but all those heart aches, I'm surely going to encounter, is getting me one step closer to finding my true love. I want you to be my first. I trust you with my life and I love you and you love me and maybe you might be my Mr. Right. Maybe we will be together and our love will last. It doesn't matter along as we have eachother to keep us grounded then nothing will ever keep us apart. I learned that from you." I said turning to him while I shedded my last two tears." I must look like a mess" I said turning the other way not wanting to see me with puffy red eyes. He turned my chin , making me look at him. He wiped my tears and brushed some stray hair out of my face.

" Your beautiful Z, and don't make anybody tell you otherwise." He said looking into my eyes. We held eachothers gaze and his eyes flickered down to my lips. I knew what was bound to happen and for the first time today I was sure of something. We leaned in slowly but surely and our lips collided in sync. Butterflies erupted in the pit of my stomach. Sparks coursed through out my body and fireworks was everywhere. Every cheesy way to feel , I felt it. Our kiss was slow but passionate, sure, but filled with a type of love and longing I never felt before and I didn't want the feeling to stop. Oxygen became a neccessity and we broke apart. We both were breathing heavily. He rested his forhead on mine with the biggest grin I'm pretty sure no on can possess. I beamed back and he pecked my lips once more.

" I can't believe you kept me from your lips for this long." He said teasingly, I giggled.

" Why? Did It measure up to your fantasy?" I replied with the same teasing tone.

" Honestly, I've thought your lips would've tasted like coffee, consideing your obsession with that stuff. If that was the case then I would always be on a caffine rush" He said which made me laugh. 

What starteed off as the most emotional day turned out to be one of the most memorable days of my life!

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