Disclaimer: Im not this frickin sad anymore
I have this affinity
This stretch towards mental destruction
I was never taught to think of the sounds at night washed over by the stream in the lush woods
The way the crickets chirp or the trees rustle I was never taught to think of such things that in my mind are so underappreciated
These are now forever paired in my memories
It feels like you have a fresh start when you go there
The way the pond is gentle and quiet
And the way the children on the playset are always absent
You feel true peace when you go there
I don't want to let that feeling go
That feeling of giving away all of my thoughts of destruction or seeing my problems cascade with the cotton in the air
I don't want to let go of the feeling of being alone
How free I feel from it
I don't want to let that feeling go
So please love,
Bring that feeling with you
Because that's all I have to feed off of until I get back into thoughts of mental destruction and my problems begin to build up so
Please,
Love,
Remind me of the sounds of the crickets chirping and the way the trees rustle and the feeling of being alone yet feeling supported by everything around me so
Please,
Love,
Don't let that memory fade away from my mind.
