If What We Had Was Real, How Could You Be Fine?

Chapter 8- Labels

The school year ended. It flew by. But I made a move and that's all that mattered to me.

Marisa and her ex girlfriend never met up. I guess they just never found the right time.

As the summer progressed, I noticed this summer was different than the last. We actually tried to hang out and we did.

It was the first time we had ever hanged out and trust me it was memorable.

She came over to my house when both my parents where at work. It was around 2pm and it was hot outside. I was wearing shorts and a t-shirt. She was also wearing shorts and a t-shirt. I remember when I first saw her she was the most beautiful girl on earth and even thought we never talked about going out. We knew we had something special.

But just to make sure we did have something special once we were inside my house watching a movie in my room, cuddling, I made my second huge move.

It all started when I bit her arm, playfully. And she did the same thing back. We kept it going back and forth, until some how I ended up on top of her (yes I'm a top) and tickled her. As she laughed, I stared at her gorgeous face. How her brown eyes would close as she laughed. How she smiled like she was having the time of her life.

As she finished her last laugh she noticed me staring with that stupid smile of mine.
All I could focus on where her brown eyes. They were shining like stars at midnight.
I didn't even try to stop myself from wanting to kiss her. So I just went for it.
I whispered "what if I bit your lip?" As I stared at her straight in the eyes and down to her lips. Leaning in for the kiss.
As I approached her lips before I closed my eyes. She smiled and that's all I needed to make sure I was doing the right thing.

It wasn't my first kiss but not even my first kiss was this special! This kiss was just different. It was the type of first kiss everyone dreams off.
Which is why I consider this kiss my first kiss even if it wasn't, that's just how special it was to me.

Eventually the kiss ended. I leaned back and we opened our eyes and just smiled. I laid next to her, resting my head on her chest and while holding her hand we kept watching the movie.

Unfortunately after the movie ended she had to leave. Her sister called her when she was outside. As I walked Marisa to the door, I pulled her back and gave her one last kiss. She smiled and walked out.

I ran back to my room with excitement and grabbed my phone. I texted right way. She said "I need to teach you how to kiss lol"
Still today, I don't know if she was serious or if it was just an excuse for her to kiss me again.
I mean honestly it wasn't my first time kissing someone so I mean I think I knew how to kiss. Maybe I wasn't great when I kissed her but give me a break I was fucking nervous!

Okay anyways, i replied with "okay I'll let you teach me"

We kept talking like nothing had happened for the rest of the day but it was after midnight when all your emotions get to you and you just cant deal with them so you just explode and let every single feeling and emotion out when I told her how I felt. I told her I had no idea what the fuck these feelings were but I did know I had a shit ton of them.

She asked "so are you bi?"

My first thought was "shit if you are bi, I'm bi!"

But what I said was "I guess.. idk"

And that's the truth I didn't know.
So many labels I didn't know what exactly I was. But for now I guess we could go with that.

After I told her how I felt about her she said "well if you dont know if you are bi and if you are confused, I'll let you use me as your experiment, nothing serious though, let's call it an adventure."

Of course I agreed to it!
I liked Her! I wanted more of Her! More of her kisses and cuddles and just more of Her!

But I was young and stupid...
I didn't think it through.