Hey welcome to my blog about my sad story of being in the gang life hope you learn something from this. 2014 September starting grade 9 waiting for the school strike to be finally over until on September 22nd we got back to school. I met this girl who was only in grade 8 but she was super nice to me and really cool. Finding out her background later in the week I was shocked this girl had a huge criminal record and she went to the police station every Tuesday I was shocked. So I started avoiding her after a month later in October I was hanging out at Tamanawis Park behind my school with my friends and she approaches me with something that looked like a cigarette but it was hard rolled up paper that felt just like a cigarette you couldn't even tell it was a paper. Anyways she asked me & my friends if we wanted to " blaze " ( smoke ) i wasn't so sure but it wouldn't stink my clothes up so I tried it she gave me the lighter and I tried it and it was awful. Fast forward to December one night i was spending time with my family and I glare at my Twitter and the girl who made me smoke that time posted pictures of her bag of weed and she threatened someone but I didn't really bother to do anything cause I knew the police would never see that but the idiot I am I was 110% wrong. The next day i head to school i was hanging out with that girl and her other friends we were about to leave the school at lunch to " blaze " when the vice principal stopped me and brought me to the office. I sit there in the chair all worried on what I did. He said to me " did you know that you were suppose to be in jail last night " as he pulls up the picture. I was confused I said " pardon " it was just a few moments of silence he said come here to my computer and I glare at his computer and the same pic of the weed was on his screen including screenshots of the threat. I go back to my seat and I was in shock he said the RCMP emailed this to me you were going to be arrested for uttering threats on social media even tho I didn't do it I still took the blame for it. The RCMP phoned my principal and the principal saved my butt from getting arrested. After that was over I went back outside and my " friends " asked " why were u in the office "I lied saying that I skipped detention. We went outside and smoked paper again I was so close to crying but I stopped my self from that. When that lifestyle continued later in the year the girl got expelled from my school I was either happy or mad but during the month of April I got suspended for 2 weeks for something that I can't comment about but it was serious. During the interview with VP, Mom, School District they questioned me about being a dangerous person cuz I told them I played GTA 5 with my cousins and I watch violent movies and listen to rap songs that got me into that life style and they were concerned. They referred me to counselling and during those sessions I just broke down and came out clean I told her about my problems of smoking and being a dangerous person. She gave me really useful advice but I didn't pay attention to it. It was fast forwarding to May I was invited to a house party and as I was about to ask my mom if I could go then something came to my mind. I was on the stair step and I stopped I look down to the living room and I see my brother so I sit down on the stairs and I look at my brother. I started to have all these feelings inside of me saying don't go ur just going to get fucked up. So I head back upstairs and all of a sudden to my room and all of a sudden I threw my pack of lighters away in the garbage and my papers away to roll weed in. I relaxed on my bed and then I suddenly started crying I had enough of the gang life style. I remember in April that there was a shooting right in front of my school during in the night and then in the morning I saw global news in front of the school and then I saw CTV news at lunch and Omni News Punjabi after school. that day got me so bad I realized that I should leave the gang life cuz at the end of the day I don't want to make headlines for being the next person of holding a gun in my hand. So I started seeking help I started learning everything to know about the harmful things in being in a gang I just realized then I was so lucky to be alive and I'm so lucky to have a family that cares about me. If your in a gang then I suggest u leave trust me being in a gang will make ur life worse and u don't want to disappoint the people u love and u especially do not want to die. Please do not getting influenced by Jazzy B song " this party is gettin hot " cuz it's just a music video they aren't really gangsters u are allowed to listen to rap songs but don't do drugs u are allowed to watch gangster movies but don't copy them. Don't be the one dead on the streets so much is going on in Surrey we have 44 shootings so far this year and every time I hear police sirens or ambulance I get so scared that i constantly look at my phone to see a headline of " another shooting in Surrey ". And when I see one my heart drops cuz that's scary and it I feel like we're living in a movie like " straight outta compton ". It's like it is Compton 🙄. But please guys if ur in grade 8,9,10,11 or 12 stay out of gangs it isn't worth it trust me it isn't. I'm heading to grade 11 now I only have 2 and a half head until high school and then it's off to the real world and trust me ur name won't be protected then by youth criminal justice act. thanks for reading my blog and remember do not join a gang don't do drugs... Stay in school.