feelings.

you.

I don't think you understand how in love with you I actually fucking am. I want to be able just to hold you and not let you go. I want to play with your hair while you fall asleep. I want to listen to your heartbeat while I lay my head on your chest. I want you and only you. I don't love you. I'm in love with you and I know love is a word that people use to much and they don't know what it means but I do. I've never felt this way for any one before. no one else gives me butterflies like you do, no one else looks me in the eye like you do, no one else can hold me like you do. you're miles away from me and I can't talk to you, I can't text you or reach out to you because you're going to ignore me anyways. I can tell you I love you and I can beg and plead but you're not going to remember me. the smile on your face when you see me makes me feel something inside I've never felt before. it's more than just butterflies. I'm not scared to talk to you because I feel like we've known each other forever. i know one day you're going to forget me and maybe one day I won't remember how your eyes use to light up when you laugh. maybe one day I won't remember how your wrapped your arms around me saying goodbye. maybe one day I won't remember you. but I promise I will always remember the love I had for you.