I told Tyler that our baby hasn't been eating or drinking at all. We drove to the hospital and doctors said she dying of heart failure. I cried and dropped to knees. Tyler can u call the band I tell them to say goodbye to Bella please? So the band didn't go to tour when the should have be with our first baby dying it was hard. So we said goodbyes and went home I couldn't sleep cuz all i could think about it Bella i cried harder than ever Tyler woke up and cuddle me . Tyler what are we going to do im not getting pregnant again cuz i will know it will happen again. Ugh baby love i don't know what going to happen so we laid in bed. We watched The Purge and i put my head into Tyler chest. After we fell asleep. I was screaming cuz i was a nightmare and Tyler woke up and held me tight and told everything is ok baby love just clam down. I clam down and slept till 12.
