how do you know you're in love?
when will you feel love for the first time?
i always thought people were hiding something from me when they'd tell me they didn't have answers to those questions.
all i wanted was an answer, but no one would give it.
you texted me at midnight.
i told you i was tired and wanted to sleep.
you said to stay up and have deep conversations with you.
i told you i could imagine a future with you.
you told me not to get attached like that.
you'd only hurt me and that was your worst fear.
i didn't care.
you thought i could find someone better.
i knew i couldn't.
i gave you a major glimpse of my past, who i was before you.
i explained how i knew someone before you, someone i thought i loved.
i told you about every night i cried over them and thought they were my destiny.
i told you how i became broken in their hands.
you said they were worthless for crushing an angel.
i didn't love them.
i loved who i made them out to be.
i love you.
i knew i was in love when i was broken and you came and proved constantly that you wanted nothing but to mend my pieces.
so for those questions,
you'll feel love when you feel it, how you feel it.
there's no certain answer.