okay so this isn't my story a girl named cindney posted it on qoutev.com and I asked her if I can publish it here.
it was just past midnight when i heard it he was drunk again and did know what he was doing i was about 6 when my my dad would come home and have endless arguments with my mom (the only one who actualy loved me ) till one night he came hom and i heard my mother yell where did you get that i felt my heart drop to my stomach as i heard a gun shot just before my mother yelled for me to get out of the house i did the only thing i could packed my stuff and slid down the tree that was luckily right by my window this was my moms room but since my dad became abusive my mother gave it to me and said i should go and only return when its my dads working hours and i did
i hate my life i said to my self its been 14 years since my dad killed her i hated him so much just the thought would make me puke after i left home when i was 6 i went to a child home i did like it 12 years of name calling beatings and a lot of other stuff
so i finally get up on my feet and i got a job and working black veil brides were playing in town and i decided with extra money ill go to their show i loved them ever since i heard sex and hollywood
on the night of the concert my dad found me after all these years nooooooo
i hid in a alley when all of a sudden a bus starts backing up in it there was like 1 meter open between the bus and a wall i thought i was gonna die i yelled but it didnt seem anyboby heard me... with a lil spare to spare i saw guys getting off the bus not knowing who they were i stared yelling " what thhhhhhe fuccccccking fuck you almost fucking killed me with your bus !!!!
omg really i heard a guy say
yeah shit sorry about that i heard a second guy say
then all of a sudden a 3rd guy say see i fucking told you i heard a girl screaming
theyy all chuckled till i yelled hello againn
come with me i heard the first guy saying
just taking his hand i passed out still not knowing who it was i was fucking scared
a few seconds later i heard a voice say fuck fuck fuck maybe we scared her too death someone said then i heard another guy luaghing its not funny jinxx someone yelled well sorry i was just trying to lighten up the mood mister cranky panty and with that everyone laughed it was funny i thought to myself
then i blinked with bright lights in my eyes i quickly turning to my side with left me falling to the ground
aaaah fuck i yelled
hayy if she had wings you could of called her the fallen angel when she was busy falling someone said and there was silence
thats not funny cc someone els yelled
i think it is the same voice said
well you head doesn't work the same as our so you will think a lot of none funny things are funny i heard a low voice say
phfft shhyeah ..... uhm ,,, ahh fuck it your just mean someone said
and everybody started laughing again they picked me up and layed me down on the table again making sure i cannot fall off again my head still hurt'd and everything around me was still very blurry all i could see was 5 shadows with looked very weird taking the condicion i was in and the way i was feeling and with everything that has happened to me so far in my crappy life here on earth
when i finally came to it there were 5 extreamly attractive guys all staring at me . omg ur i said in a low voice
yes OH MY FUCKING GOD YOUR BLACK VEIL BRIDES Ashley said making me laugh "okay okay we gott go we have a show to do you know Andy said relax Ballsack Ashley said in a funny voice too Andy do you want to sleep outside Andy asked while everyone no he said grumpily
soo sweetie whats ur name Ashely asked me putting his arm around my waist
giggling i said iris
cool name i heard Jinxx say
thanks i smiled at him
heyyy back of Jinxx she is mine go play with Sammy or something
making the rest of the band chuckle for about 5 minutes witch was weird
Then some guy came up too the band and said they have to start in about 25 mins.Me and Ashley headed to a room inside the venue where they were playing ,he locked the door and sat next to me.We were just randomly talking when i saw he was looking at my arm i realized i forgot to put my sleave down.He asked me if i did this too my self ,I just nodded .He asked me why and i just started crying He held me close and kissed my head.Telling me everything was fine and i would be safe with him then i just started thinking back of how my mother used to say the exact same thing to me and look where she is now dead.
He looked and ASKED me "So gonna tell me now?" I nodded and told him everything.How my dad abused me and my mom i would cut myself whenever my mom told me to run and go hide from my dad and when my dad saw i did that he would take the blade and put more cuts on even when i stopped for a while he continued.
I saw Ashley's eyes starting to water then pushed my sleave lightly under his eye so his make up wouldn't smudge.
You don't deserve any of those things your dad did to you ash said pulling me in and quickly pecking my cheek.making me blush
then all of a sudden i started crying again over all those thoughts i wasn't use to talking to other people about it.
It killed me inside.Usually i can not talk to other people but with ash it just came out.
