Cruel Life

Wants

Jailyn's POV
I always wanted to be happy.. And to be happy for me is to be loved by the one I love! But life is so difficult to understand, the more we want it to be the easy way it would turn out to be the hardest one! I always say wala namang madali diba? we always need to work hard for the things we want ..And even if we work hard for it, disappointments always come... Well it's the saddest part of our life.They always say na hindi tayo matututu kung hindi tayo mahihirapan. Sometimes I agree but sometimes not. I dont know, maybe because I have my own principle in life. Pag nahirapan ka ba ibig sabihin nun matututo ka na? diba minsan pag nahirapan ka mas lalo kang nawawala? mas lalo kang nagiging mali? paano ka natutu dun? Hays.. Life, Life is so unpredictable. Araw araw lagi akong nag tatanong kung ano nga bang purpose ko sa mundong ito. Kung ano bang dapat kong gawin para maging masaya, dahil pakiramdam ko sa araw araw na ginawa ng Diyos, nag kukunwari lang akong masaya. I just want to be happy, Is it really hard to be happy? I dont think so , we have our own choices, and yet we choose to be miserable than to be happy. Crazy right? but thats the truth.

Umaga na naman, isang umaga na namang puro problema ang nasa isip ko. Isang umaga na puno na naman ng lungkot. Habang ang iba masaya.Bakit nga ba napakahirap maging masaya? Paano nga ba akong magiging masaya kung alam kong nag kamali na ako sa desisyon ko? Isang desisyong habang buhay kong pangsisisihan.

I'm Jailyn I've got married at early age. I thought I was already prepared but im not! I decided so fast didnt even think that I might regret it in the future. I must admit at first I was really inlove with him, but I guess being inlove is not only the reason why you have to get married! Hindi lang pala ito parang kaning mainit na pag napaso ka ay pwede mo pang iluwa. Its not like that.Being married means to stick through easy and hard times!Being married means wala ng atrasan, face your obligation! Me and my husband started as a fling. Friends with benefits?yan kami noon. Funny right? we both made a wrong decision? Hindi maganda ang naging simula namin, Nakasagasa kami ng ibang tao. Kaya ngayon eto at kinakarma ko. Handa o hindi ,kailangan kong tanggapin , kung sana naisip ko noon na wag na Lang. Sana hindi naLang! Baka mas masaya ako ngayon! Hindi ako nag sisisi na my anak ako ngayon! Pero sana ,naisip ko na hindi mo na ako nag pakasal. Sana pinag isipan ko muna. Mga 101 times bago ko pinasok. Masyado akong nabulag na baka siya yung para sakin. Akala ko ,akala ko lang pala .. At dahil sa maling akala,napunta ako sa maling sitwasyon!