You have no idea how I felt
You have no idea of how much I have been suffering all alone not being able to do anything.
And when I thought that everything was going to be alright, you ripped my heart apart without hesitation and took everything that could've kept me sane.
You took my life away.
Everything I could give to you , you took it without treasuring any of it.
Do you know how I felt ?
I felt lost..,
Empty as if it was useless for me to continue living.
Pain was the only thing that showed me that I was actually still alive.
Breathing was painful..
Every passing second was so painful that I kept wishing death to take me..
I hate you.
I hate you for making me feel like this. No one has ever done this to me and never has anyone ever hurt me like you did.
But as much as I hate you.
I hate myself with just as much as intensity. I hate myself.
I hate myself because after everything that I've been through because of you. I cant help but I still love you.
I'm supposed to make you suffer far more than I have suffered.
But I could never leave you suffering all by yourself like you did it with me.
And I know deep inside that I'm going to regret the decision later on.
Because no matter how many scars you have inflicted on my heart and soul,
I know that I would never be able to bare you seeing you going through the same pain.
Im going to leave, because right now I just wish to be far away from you. Being near you suffocates me. So I will disappear and try to heal myself with the best way that I can.
-YunJae
