It's been a month so far I don't know how I'm surviving with only eating one piece of rotten stale bread dipped in water I am starting to lose hope "well well well look what I've got of you today "he says he Rolls in a TVs he presses a button on the remote and what comes up on the screen kills me it's... Clayton hooking up with Zoe. that's the point where I feel my heart shattering , I didn't realise that is possible to feel this much pain how could he? I don't let people in and he knew that but then I let him why did he voluntarily shatter me even more I remember something I used to say I just wish I stuck by it this the reason I said I'd be happy alone it wasn't because I thought I'd be happy alone it was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart I might not make it its easier to be alone because what if you learn that you need love and then you don't have it what if you like it and lean on it? what if you shape your life around it? and then... It falls apart, can you even survive that kind of pain? And I'm barely living as it is I think this is my tipping point never in my life have I said this not even when it was so incredibly lost or in so much pain but... Now it has reached I different level I Love Clayton so much that I really would Break my own heart just to help him just to make sure he was happy and if he is happy with Zoe ... then I guess I'm happy for him all I want is for him to be happy and if he is happy with her and then he better never let go of her now I say the words that I've promised myself I would never say no matter how bad it got but now... It's just unbearable I just can't do it anymore....
I give up
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FantasíaCrimson black is a badgirl with an even worse past she's had her heart broken too many times and doesn't believe in love anymore What happens when a new bad boy comes and they start developing feelings for each other and what happens when he comes...
