Alone

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Stupid

Dumb

Ugly

This is me.. And this is my story...

Hi my name is Julian Morris, but you can call me "Jules" and "Julie" that's what everyone else calls me anyways. I am about to turn 16 in just a couple of weeks.

Before starting highschool I was that type of person who got along with everyone and almost everyone liked. But as soon as high school starts it all kind of goes downhill... You lose friends, you go out, you're either popular or just some loser they look down upon and rule over. Let me tell ya! Starting highschool was the biggest dream I ever had. I had always imagined the lovely cheerful happy high schools I had seen in those crappy movies, but now that I have actually lived through 2 years of it and soon to be 3. My hopes and dreams of ever believing high school would be the best have collapsed.

Everything I once knew to be true turned out to be a lie. Everyone I trusted betrayed me, but who was I to stand in the way of anyone who wanted to step all over me and squashed me into little tiny pieces.

After all I was just a nobody.
Some loser everyone made fun us.
That one person no one stuck up for.
The one who stuck up for anyone yet no one ever returned that lovely favor.

I was alone

Being alone can lead you to such an awful dark state of mind. Something so evil. That not even you can save yourself from it... It feeds on all your sadness and regrets in life like it was it's own meal. It makes you do things you would of never thought you were capable of.

And that my friend is what I have just done. I've reached that melting point in my life and I am about to burst.
So, Let me just rewind to when this all started...

" Julian, Julian wake up! "
" is she dead? "
" what's going on? "
" mommy I'm scared "
" it's okay sweetie she'll be OK "

Those voices they sound so familiar. Where am I?

A flash of light blind my face

Can't see What is going on? How long have I been here for?

" Julie try to stay with us now. It's all up to you now. You're either going to stick with us now or leave us all hear to moarn in pain. "

What the hell is going on? Am I... Am I dying?

Something starts beeping really loud in the distance.

" Oh God we're losing her "
" come on Julie "
"Julie"
"Jules "
" JULIAN! "

I quickly jump back in fear knocking my chair over. I hit my head pretty hard with the desk behind me. All I could do was moan in pain.

" Julian since i'm boring you so much with my lessons why don't you care to answer our history question up on the board " Said Mrs. Bernt pointing at the chalk board.

On what piece of territory was the battle of bunker hill faught?

Oh Great!.. I'm screwed I wasn't listening at all to the lesson we were just learning. Let alone about some dumb battle that will have nothing to do with my future life or what job I get.

I have to answer it though.. By now the whole class was looking at me waiting for me to mess up. Waiting to get a good laugh out of me.

Everyone was Silent not a word was coming out of anyone. I had to act and I had to act now!

" Uhmm, Can I please be excused? I have to use the bathroom. "

" Very well, but I expect a 2 page essay handed to me by tomorrow about everything we just learned in class today. "

I nodded and grabbed my belongings then quickly headed forth the bathroom stall.
I opened one of the stalls and sat down next to the toilet and waited for lunch to come around.

By the time I knew it a bunch of girls barged into the bathroom.

" OMG! Did you guys see the way Julian ran out Mrs.Brent classroom? "
" OMG! That was so funny what a loser "
" I heard last year she slept with her best friends ex boyfriend as soon as they had broken up! "
" Gee, what a T-Bag! "
" Totally agree she's a sl-- "
" well let's not waste anymore time on that shemale we have better things to do anyways! "

And just like that they were gone. I was crying in the bathroom stall. Of course they would know me as the girl who slept with her ex-boyfriend by now the whole school probably knew. I couldn't make out who the girls were by there voices, but I wish I could tell them why I did it.

I did it to protect her. I had to protect her if I didn't do what he said he would of leaked a picture of her. A very bad picture that would never be forgotten. I lost her because of it. If only she knew I did what I could to protect her from being humiliated. Yet, now I have to suffer the consequences.

Ring! Ring! Ring!

Oh finally lunch time thank the lord. I grabbed my book bag and hurried out the bathroom.

Lunch...