The Shadows

The first poem i ever wrote.

I'm a daughter hiding her depression,

I'm a sister making a good impression,

I'm the girl you borrow things from,

I am someone about to come undone.

I'm the glass about to shatter,

I'm the girl asking if she really matters.

I'm the girl finding out who cares,

I'm wondering if my best friend will be there.

I'm the one yelling for hours on end

waiting for something good to finally begin.

Hiding from the light,

putting up even bigger fights.

Building walls inside my mind

hiding feelings and trying not to cry.

I'm that girl that looks at you and smiles

(I'm that girl that has hated herself for quite a while.)

I'm that girl who people say is pretty

(I'm that girl that believes what people say is out of pity)

I laugh off the insults people throw at me,

when i really believe what they say.

I have no hope,

and I've tied the rope more times than i could count.

I've stood on the chair,

looked down at the note,

I untied the rope and cried again.

Sleep came slowly,

My eyes grew heavy,

Maybe I'll find hope another day,

Maybe i'll find hope in the,

Blood I bleed,

The ropes I tie,

The tears that pour from my eyes.

Maybe i'll find hope in the pain filled nights,

Maybe one day i won't have to fight,

Maybe one day I'll find the light.