Fifth harmony imagines

You need to let me go: Camila

Camila's POV

7 months. 7 months without her. 7 long painful months filled with nothing but crying, heartbreak, and grief. I miss her. I miss her more then I'd ever missed anything ever in my whole life. All the memories we had shared. Memories that would stay forever with me because they were all I had left of her. I remember that beautiful smile that could light up any room she walked into. Those adorable dimples that I would poke. Those pink lips that were plump and soft. Those beautiful y/e/c eyes. Everything about her was perfect. Now all I had were memories. Some good while others not so much. We fought, of course, like all couples but with her it was different. Whenever we were fighting she would just randomly stop yelling, stop speaking. I would always glare at her because I was mad but then she would walk up to me and engulf me in a hug and apologize. Why? Because she was scared. She was scared of losing me. It was sweet to know she cared so much. She made me feel like the only girl in the world. But, sadly she is gone. Gone forever. I remember the night she past away like it was yesterday.
Flashback
I was sitting on the couch with the girls watching a movie, while Y/n was out with some friends that she hadn't seen in a while. "When is y/n coming home Mila?" Lauren had asked me. I shrugged. I wasn't sure when she was getting home until I got a call from her. "Oh that must be her" I said pausing the movie. I answered the phone call expecting it to be my amazing girlfriend but I was mistaken. "Hey, Camila, right? This is y/n friend Lucy. Um there's been an accident." I sat there terrified. Shock and fear written all over my face. "Camz what's wrong?" Ally asked me. I ignored ally and continued listening to Lucy. "She was driving home and a drunk driver ran a red light and crashed into the drivers side of her car. She is at Rosemary hospital. Room 37b second floor." Lucy then hung up and I did the same. "Camila what the hell is going on?" Lauren asked me. "I'll tell you in the car but right now we need to go to Rosemary hospital." They didn't question me until we got in the car. I informed them of what had happened and they were just as shocked and heartbroken as I was. When we arrived we hurried to y/n room to find her laying on the bed with monitors and wires hooked up to her. I walked over, sitting in the uncomfortable chair placed next to the bed and grabbed her limp hand in mine. She had a cut across her cheek and stitches on her forehead, along with a busted lip. Soon the doctor walked in and told us what was wrong with her. "She has two broken ribs on her left side and two broken and one shattered rub on her right side. Along with a concussion. But that's not what you have to worry about. There was internal bleeding that we managed to temporarily stop but the chances of her making it are quite slim. I'm sorry." And with that he left the room. I sat there staring at the love of my life hoping and praying she would be alright or thinking that this was a nightmare. The girls were sat across from us on the couch and chair that were lined against the wall. "Please make it beautiful" I whispered. I was heartbroken and scared. I didn't know what I would do if I lost her. After about an hour she slowly started to wake up. Her eyes fluttered open to reveal dull y/e/c eyes that were filled with pain. "Hey babe" she croaked out. I smiled weakly as the other girls came over to the bed. "Cami I don't feel good" she whispered. "I know everything will be alright." She looked frighten. I was to and so were the girls. After 20 minutes of talking things started going downhill. Y/n started coughing up blood. The doctor and some nurses rushed in and we had to leave the room and wait in the hallway. The doctor came out with a sour face "she's doesn't have long. Maybe about 30 minutes if not, less. She would like to see you. I'm sorry." He then walked off followed by the nurses. All of us had tears streaming down our faces. "Hey guys" y/n weakly said crying. "I'm sorry guys. I'm sorry I'm not gonna make it but you guys will be fine without me. It maybe painful at first but soon that pain will disappear and all that will be left of me will be all those great memories. Lauren, you are an amazing friend and a great girl. I'm glad we are friends. I could always go to you for advice on whatever was bothering me. I knew you would always be there for me no matter what. Ally, you are the most kind hearted person ever. You truly are a little ball of sunshine. I'll miss baking cookies will you and you yelling at me for eating the cookie dough. Dinah, you my friend are a free spirit. You taught me how to live life without worrying about everything. And I'm great full for that because I used to worry about the littlest things. Normani, I'm glad I met you. I'll always remember dancing with you and having those stupid yet fun twerking competitions with you even though I always lost. You four are truly the greatest friends I could've ever asked for. Thank you for being there and I'll always love you. Camila, oh god where do I begin. I love you. I'm sure you already know. I'm sure the whole world knows. You've made me feel things I've never felt before. I know we've been dating for about three years now but every time you look at me I get the worst butterflies like I did when we first started going out. I always blush when you complement me even if I didn't believe  it. I would go on about the way you make me feel but there's no point cause you'll never understand nor will anyone else understand the effect you have on me. Hell, I don't even understand what you do to me but I know I love you will my body, heart, and soul to death. I would fucking die for you. I wish I didn't have to go but sometimes things happen for reasons you'll never understand, and Camila I know this is going to hurt you so fucking bad. I know you'll be heartbroken along with the rest of you but you just have to be strong, although that is tough, very tough. I will always be in your heart and if you ever miss me just think of all those good times we had. I was going to ask you to marry me. There's a ring under my batman shirt on the left side of my dresser drawer. You know where you found that picture of you and I a couple of months ago. I wanted to have kids with you too. You would be a great mom. Karla Camila Cabello I will forever love you and watch over you my dear princess, but I want you to let go of me. You need to let go. And I know that's going to be hard but it's for the best. Move on and find someone who loves you, even though no one will love you as much as me, you've got to move on. And Camila, darling you'll be ok...I love you." After that whole speech I was crying and screaming at her telling her not to go. But sadly she did. I leaned over and kissed her one last time on those perfect lips and I took in all her features one last time. And I told her 'I love you' for the very last time.