Poems Part 2

Time To Be Me

Can anybody hear me?

Can you hear my plea for help?

I feel as if I died.

Destroyed everything in a drunken rage

Hurt everyone around me

I could've died

So why didn't I?

Is there a reason for me to still be alive?

Is there a reason for everything?

Life, is life really all it's cracked up to be?

It's time to change my ways

No more, no more

I can't be the bringer of pain anymore

I must be who I once was

Despite it all,

I still want to be the guy who brings smiles wherever I go

But the pain, the things that happened finally hit me

It hit me hard

Years and years of avoidance drove me to fits of rage

It's time to accept it all and get over it

It's time to be who I once was,

even if it mean, I have to give everything up that's left

Because what good am I if all I do is bring pain wherever I go?

Mother doesn't love me,

and I don't care

Father doesn't love me,

and I don't care.

They pretended to love me,

and I don't care

I killed,

And I hurt,

I destroyed lives,

I've destroyed everything

But it's in the past

and I have to live for the present

It's time to find my light,

time to accept that I am in the darkness

and it's time to find a way out

I accept the fact that no one else can do this for me

I have to do this myself

Guidance is needed,

And it is time to find that

No more lies,

No more sorrow,

No more false hope,

It is time,

time to crawl out of this dark abyss

And find who I truly am

This is not who I am

nor who I want to be

It's time,

To be me.